Main Hi Galat Tha…

“Logon ne mujhe galat tab bola… jab maine unke jhooth se zyada apni sacchai pe yaqeen rakha.”

– Zulfikar Inamdar

Main Hi Galat Tha…

Arz kiya hai… ke…

Har waqt lagta hai ke main hi galat tha,
jaise meri har saans kisi gunaah ka pata deti ho,
jaise meri sacchai ka bojh
meri hi peeth todne ke liye likha gaya ho.

Logon ki woh khokhli muskurahat—
jo zara sa jhuki nahi hoti,
zara sa pighalti nahi hoti—
wo mujhe har roz yeh yaqeeni dilaati rahi
ke problem main hoon…
magar aaj tak kisi ne yeh nahi socha
ke shayad main bas zara sa zyada insaan hoon.

Kabhi kabhi to main khud ko hi poochta hoon,
“Tu itna toot kar bhi sambhal kaise leta hai?”
Aur dil ke andar se awaaz aati hai:
“Aadmi tab tak toot nahi sakta
jab tak uske aansu ki jagah dil me hi zinda ho.”

Raat ki sanata bhari hawa me,
jab log mehfooz neend so rahe hote hain,
main akela apni saanson ka hisaab rakhta hoon—
kaunsi saans me dard tha,
kaunsi me uski yaad,
kaunsi me duniya ka thok diya hua ilzam.

Aur tab yaad aati hai woh,
jise dekh kar laga tha
ke shayad meri zindagi me bhi roshni ka ek hissa utrega.
Par roshni kya aayi—
meri saari zindagi ko chand lamhon ki roshni ne
doobti raat bana diya.

Uska jaana kisi wafadar saathi ka chhute jaane jaisa nahi tha,
wo to jaise kisi ne meri rooh ko aadha khel kar tod diya ho.
Aaj bhi jab uski tasveer aankhon me aati hai,
dil ke andar se awaaz nikalti hai:
“Agar main galat tha…
to itna dard sahi kyun lagta hai?”

Log kehte hain waqt sab theek kar deta hai—
magar waqt ne to mujhe bas sikha diya
ke kuch zakhm bharne ke liye nahi,
sirf jeene ke liye hote hain.

Aur haan…
logon ke lafz, unki nigaahein,
unke be-lafz faislay—
yeh sab mujhe har baar yeh batate rahe
ke main unke hisaab se galat hoon.
Par unka hisaab bhi kya tha?
Bas ek dikhawa, ek adaa, ek jhooth,
jo unke chehre ko sundar
aur dil ko be-jaan banaye rakhta tha.

Jo main maanta hoon,
uski sachchai duniya nahi uthaa paati.
Aur jo duniya chahti hai,
wo main apne zameer par jhel nahi paata.

Isliye aaj main khud se ek e’tiraf karta hoon—
Agar mere hisaab se dekhoge,
to main bilkul galat nahi tha…
Par agar duniya ki nazron se dekhoge,
to haan bhai,
main hi sabse zyada galat tha.

Kyuki
main ne imandari se mohabbat ki,
wafa se saath diya,
sacchai se jeeya,
aur dil se toot gaya.

Aur iss duniya me
sachcha insaan hi sabse zyada galat maana jaata hai.

“Dard ye nahi ke log mujhe galat samajhte hain…
dard ye hai ke shayad main unke liye
zara sahi tha hi nahi.”