“Insaan jab had se zyada toot jaata hai, tab woh awaaz nahi deta… sirf Allah ko pukarta hai.”
– Zulfikar Inamdar
“When a person breaks beyond limits, they don’t cry out loud… they whisper only to God.”
“Bikharne Se Pehle”:
Arz kiya hai ke…
Mai apni hi zindagi se thakne laga hu ai mere pyaare Allah,
har saans bojh si lagti hai, har din katne laga hu ai mere pyaare Allah…
Na jaane kis mod pe khud ko peeche chhod aaya hu,
ab aaine mein bhi apna chehra ajnabi lagne laga hu ai mere pyaare Allah…
Raat bhar jagta hu yaadon ke bojh tale chup chaap,
aur subah uth kar phir se jeene ka natak karne laga hu ai mere pyaare Allah…
Log kehte hain ke muskurahat sab theek kar deti hai,
mai muskurakar bhi andar se bikharne laga hu ai mere pyaare Allah…
Kabhi jo dil tha, ab sirf ek khamosh sehra reh gaya hai,
jahan har khwaab ret ban kar fisalne laga hu ai mere pyaare Allah…
Na koi shikwa hai, na kisi se gila raha ab,
mai bas khud se hi haar kar chup rehne laga hu ai mere pyaare Allah…
Kabhi socha tha zindagi ek rehmat hogi tere naam ki,
par ab har mod pe bas imtehaan sa lagne laga hu ai mere pyaare Allah…
Mujhe apni rehmat ke aagosh me le le, mere Maula,
bikhar jaane se pehle pehle, mai khud se bhi door hone laga hu ai mere pyaare Allah…
Teri rehmat ka ek qatra bhi mil jaaye agar,
toh shayad phir se jeene ka hausla milne laga hu ai mere pyaare Allah…
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English Version:
“Before I Fall Apart”
A request is…
I am growing tired of my own life, O my beloved Allah,
every breath feels heavy, every day feels harder to survive…
Somewhere along the way, I lost myself,
even my own reflection now feels like a stranger…
I stay awake at night, drowning in silent thoughts,
and wake up pretending I still know how to live…
They say a smile can fix everything,
but even while smiling, I am falling apart inside…
My heart, once alive, is now a silent desert,
where every dream slips away like grains of sand…
I have no complaints left, no strength to argue,
I have quietly surrendered to my own broken self…
I once believed life was a blessing in Your name,
but now it feels like a test at every step…
Hold me in the embrace of Your mercy, my Lord,
before I fall apart completely… before I lose myself…
If even a drop of Your mercy reaches me,
perhaps I will find the strength to live again…
Sher O Shayeri 