Usay Kya Hi Farak Padhta Hai…”

“Mohabbat ka sab se dardnaak anjaam judaai nahi hota,
Balki woh lamha hota hai jab aap samajh jaate hain ke jis shakhs ke liye aap roye the, usay aapke aansuon se kabhi farak hi nahi pada…”

— Zulfikar Inamdar 🌹🥀

Jo kabhi dara nahi mujhe khone se,
Usay kya hi farak padhta hai mere hone ya na hone se…

Kuch dard aise hote hain,
Jo lafzon mein bayan nahi hote,
Jo aansuon se halka nahi hote,
Jo saalon tak dil ke kisi veeran kone mein
Khamoshi se basera kar lete hain…

Main har roz thoda thoda bikhar kar bhi,
Uske liye wahi raha jo pehle tha,
Magar usay kya hi farak padhta hai
Mere tootne se, mere judne se…

Kabhi raat bhar jag kar uski khair maangi,
Kabhi apni khwahishon ko qurbaan kar diya,
Kabhi apne dard chhupa kar uski muskurahat khareed li,
Magar usay kya hi farak padhta hai
Mere marne se ya jeene se…

Ek waqt tha jab uski ek awaaz par
Dil sajde mein gir jaata tha,
Aaj woh saamne se guzar jaaye to bhi
Khamoshi mere saath chalti hai…

Main ne mohabbat ko ibadat samjha,
Usne shayad ek aadat samjha,
Aur aadatein badal jaati hain,
Magar ibadatein kabhi nahi badalti…

Kabhi kabhi sochta hoon,
Kya meri kami usay mehsoos hogi?
Phir dil hans kar kehta hai,
“Jo shakhs tumhare hote hue tumhara na hua,
Woh tumhare na hone par kya tumhara hoga?”

Main ne uske liye kitni duaein maangi,
Ye sirf Allah jaanta hai,
Aur kitni dafa apne aansuon ko
Muskurahat ke parde ke peeche chhupaya,
Ye sirf mera takiya jaanta hai…

Har raat ek hi sawal dil se takrata hai,
“Aakhir kami kahan reh gayi thi mujh mein?”
Mohabbat kam thi?
Wafa kam thi?
Ya phir qismat ko hi mera muskuraana manzoor na tha…

Ab thak gaya hoon kisi ko apna dard samjhate samjhate,
Ab thak gaya hoon kisi ki qadr karte karte,
Kyun ke jo log dil se nikal jaate hain,
Woh phir yaadon mein to rehte hain,
Magar zindagi mein nahi…

Aur sab se badi tanhaai ye nahi hoti
Ke koi aapke paas na ho,
Balki sab se badi tanhaai ye hoti hai
Ke koi aapke paas ho kar bhi aapka na ho…

Is liye ab shikwa bhi nahi karta,
Na gila karta hoon,
Kyun ke jo kabhi dara nahi mujhe khone se,
Usay kya hi farak padhta hai mere hone ya na hone se…