“Sawaal Karne Se Bhi Dar Lagta Hai”:

“Kabhi-kabhi insaan jawaab se nahi,
us sach se darta hai jo jawaab ke baad
uske dil mein hamesha ke liye reh jaata hai…”
“Ajeeb bebasi hai… sawaal dil mein cheekhte hain,
magar lab khamosh rehte hain—
kyunki kuch jawaab mil jaayein,
toh insaan apni hi umeedon se mehroom ho jaata hai.”

-Zulfikar Inamdar

“Sawaal Karne Se Bhi Dar Lagta Hai”

Arz kiya hai ke…

Kisise Kuch Poochna Bhi Ek Uljhan Lagti Hai

Ye kaisi mushkil aan padi hai zindagi mein,
Kisise kuch poochna bhi ek uljhan lagti hai…
Dil mein sawaalon ka ek samandar hai,
Magar labon par har baat adhoori si lagti hai…

Kuch poochna chahein toh darr lagta hai,
Kahin sawaal hi rishta na tod de…
Kuch kehna chahein toh khauf hota hai,
Kahin lafz hi kisi apne ka dil na tod de…

Kabhi sochte hain—
“Pooch lein… aakhir haq hai humein jaanne ka…”
Phir dil khud hi dheere se keh deta hai,
“Rehne do… kya zaroori hai har sach ko saamne laana?”

Ajeeb kashmakash hai dil ki bhi,
Na khamoshi se sukoon milta hai,
Na sawaal karne ki himmat hoti hai…
Bas andar hi andar kuch toot-ta rehta hai,
Aur chehre par muskurahat rakhni padti hai…

Hum kisi se jawaab nahi maangte,
Bas thodi si tasalli chahte hain…
Magar aajkal tasalli maangna bhi,
Jaane kyun kisi par bojh rakhna lagta hai…

Kabhi kisi ke badle hue lehje ko padhte hain,
Kabhi uski khamoshi mein chhupe matlab dhoondte hain,
Kabhi ek chhote se “theek hoon” mein,
Na jaane kitne “theek nahi hoon” sun lete hain…

Aur phir dil kehta hai—
“Pooch lo…”
Magar zubaan keh deti hai—
“Nahi… rehne do…”

Kyunki darr sirf jawaab ka nahi hota,
Darr toh us pal ka hota hai,
Jab saamne wala woh keh de
Jise sunne ke baad
Hum apni hi umeedon ko dafan karne par majboor ho jaayein…

Kuch sawaal aise hote hain
Jinke jawaab insaan ko tod dete hain,
Aur kuch khamoshiyan aisi hoti hain
Jo umr bhar insaan ko andar se khaati rehti hain…

Hum bhi ajeeb hain na…
Jis shakhs se sabse zyada kehna hota hai,
Usi se sabse zyada chhupate hain…
Jis se ek sach sunne ki tamanna hoti hai,
Usi se sawaal karne se ghabraate hain…

Kahin woh keh na de—
“Tumhe mujh par yakeen nahi?”

Aur hum kya jawaab denge?

Kaise samjhayenge use
Ke sawaal yakeen ki kami se nahi,
Mohabbat ki ziyadati se paida hote hain…

Jise dil mein jagah mil jaaye,
Uski khamoshi bhi sawaal ban jaati hai…
Uska ek badla hua lafz,
Raat bhar neend chura leta hai…
Uska thoda sa door hona bhi,
Dil ko jaane kitni dooriyon ka ehsaas kara deta hai…

Kabhi kabhi toh bas itna poochna hota hai—
“Kya sab theek hai?”
Magar us chhote se sawaal ke peeche,
Dil ki poori ek kahani chhupi hoti hai…

Hum poochna chahte hain—
“Kya hum ab bhi utne hi apne hain?”
“Kya tumhare dil mein ab bhi wahi jagah hai?”
“Kya meri baaton ka ab bhi intezaar hota hai?”
“Kya meri khamoshi tumhe bhi kabhi mehsoos hoti hai?”
“Kya meri kami tumhe bhi kabhi rulati hai?”

Magar…
In sawaalon ko zubaan dene se pehle hi
Dil kaanp jaata hai…

Kyunki mohabbat mein
Sabse bada darr judaai ka nahi hota,
Sabse bada darr ye hota hai
Ke kahin hum kisi ke paas reh kar bhi
Uske liye pehle jaise na rahein…

Phir insaan chup ho jaata hai…

Apne hi sawaalon ko seene mein dafan karke,
Apne hi dil ko samjhata hai—
“Jo hoga, dekha jaayega…”
Magar dil bhi jaanta hai
Ke ye tasalli jhoothi hai…

Kyunki jo baat dil mein ghar kar jaaye,
Woh khamoshi se kahan jaati hai…

Woh toh raat ke sannate mein laut kar aati hai,
Takiyyon par aansu ban kar bikhar jaati hai,
Aur subah aankhon ke neeche
Thakaan bankar nazar aati hai…

Kabhi kabhi lagta hai
Kaash hum dil ke bina jee paate…
Na kisi ke lehje ko mehsoos karte,
Na kisi ki khamoshi ko samajhte,
Na kisi ke badle hue bartao ka matlab nikaalte,
Na kisi ke “kuch nahi” mein
Itna kuch dhoondhte…

Magar dil hai ke maanta hi nahi…

Woh har baar wahi sawaal karta hai—
“Aakhir badla kya hai?”

Aur hum har baar
Usse kehte hain—
“Kuch bhi toh nahi…”

Jabki andar se hum jaante hain,
Bahut kuch badal chuka hai…

Bas kehne ki himmat nahi hai…

Isliye ab kisi se kuch poochna bhi
Ek uljhan lagti hai…
Sach jaanne ki khwahish bhi hai,
Aur sach sunne se darr bhi lagta hai…

Dil chahta hai koi khud samajh le,
Bina pooche sab keh de…
Bina sawaal ke jawaab de de…
Aur bas itna keh de—

“Tum itna kyun sochte ho?
Main yahin hoon…
Tumhare saath hoon…
Aur kuch bhi nahi badla.”

Shayad phir ye dil bhi maan jaaye…

Magar har kisi ko
Dil ki zubaan kahan samajh aati hai…

Isliye hum bhi ab khamosh hain,
Apne sawaalon ke saath,
Apni umeedon ke saath,
Apne darr ke saath…

Aur shayad isi khamoshi mein
Ek din hum itne thak jaayenge
Ke sawaal karna bhi chhod denge…

Na isliye ke humein jawaab mil gaya hoga,
Balki isliye…

Ke baar-baar toot kar
Insaan ek din
Apne hi dil ko sawaal karna chhod deta hai…

Aur phir ek din
Kisi se kuch poochne ki zaroorat nahi rehti…

Kyunki jis dil ko
Har baat samajhne ki aadat ho jaaye,
Woh ek waqt ke baad
Khamoshiyon ke jawaab bhi padh leta hai…

Bas afsos itna rehta hai—

Kaash kuch sawaalon ke jawaab
Itne der se na milte…
Kaash kuch sach
Itna dardnaak na hota…
Aur kaash…
Jinhe hum apna samajh kar
Har baat poochna chahte the,
Unse kuch poochne ke liye
Humein kabhi itna sochna na padta…

Ye kaisi mushkil aan padi hai zindagi mein…
Kisise kuch poochna bhi ek uljhan lagti hai,
Aur chup rehna…
Har guzarte pal ke saath
Dil par ek naya bojh rakh deta hai…