“Hum thak zaroor gaye hain zindagi se ladte-ladte,
-Zulfikar Inamdar
magar abhi itne bhi nahi toote ke khud se haar maan lein.”
Meri Khamoshi Ko Haar Mat Samajhna
Arz kiya hai ke…
Kabhi kabhi dil karta hai
ke sab kuch chhod kar kahin door chale jaayein,
jahan koi humse sawaal na kare,
jahan humein apni khamoshi ka matlab
kisi ko samjhana na pade,
jahan hum bas kuch der
apne aap ke saath baith sakein…
aur apne andar ke us shor ko sun sakein
jo duniya ke saamne kabhi sunai nahi deta.
Bahut kuch kehna hota hai humare paas,
magar alfaaz saath nahi dete…
Bahut kuch poochna hota hai,
magar sawaal karne se bhi darr lagta hai…
Aur kabhi kabhi to aisa lagta hai
jaise hum apni hi zindagi mein
ek aise shakhs ban gaye hain
jise khud bhi samajhna mushkil ho gaya hai.
Log kehte hain,
“Tum pehle jaise nahi rahe…”
Hum kaise samjhaayein unhe
ke hum badle nahi hain,
bas waqt ne humein
thoda khamosh kar diya hai.
Pehle har baat dil par le liya karte the,
ab bahut kuch seh kar bhi
sirf muskura dete hain.
Pehle kisi ke door jaane par
raat bhar socha karte the,
ab koi chala bhi jaaye
to hum bas itna kehte hain—
“Shayad uska safar yahin tak tha.”
Magar sach ye hai
ke andar se hum aaj bhi wahi hain…
Aaj bhi kisi ki ek achhi baat
poora din behtar kar deti hai,
aaj bhi kisi ki berukhi
raat bhar jagati hai,
aaj bhi kisi apne ki awaaz
dil ko sukoon de deti hai,
aur aaj bhi kisi ke badle hue lehje se
hum toot jaate hain…
Bas farq itna hai
ke ab hum apne tootne ki awaaz
kisi ko sunaate nahi.
Humne seekh liya hai
ke har dard ka zikr zaroori nahi hota,
har aansu dikhana zaroori nahi hota,
aur har zakhm ka ilaaj
duniya ke paas nahi hota.
Kuch zakhm waqt ke saath bharte nahi,
bas hum unke saath jeena seekh jaate hain.
Humein bhi bahut baar laga
ke shayad ab humse nahi hoga…
Bahut raaton tak
khud se ladte rahe,
khud ko samjhate rahe,
khud ko sambhalte rahe.
Kabhi khud se poocha—
“Hum hi kyun?”
Phir khud hi jawab diya—
“Shayad isliye
kyunki humse zindagi ko
abhi kuch aur karwana hai.”
Humari kahani mein
abhi bahut se panne khaali hain.
Kuch khwaab hain
jinhe humne kisi ko bataya tak nahi,
kuch armaan hain
jinhe humne waqt ke darr se
dil ke kisi kone mein chhupa rakha hai,
kuch duaayein hain
jo hum har raat
bina awaaz ke maangte hain.
Aur shayad…
Un duaon ka qubool hona
abhi baaki hai.
Aaj agar humare haath khaali hain,
to iska matlab ye nahi
ke kismat bhi khaali hai.
Aaj agar humari aankhon mein nami hai,
to iska matlab ye nahi
ke humari zindagi mein khushi nahi aayegi.
Aaj agar kuch log
humein haara hua samajh rahe hain,
to unhe samajhne do…
Har jung ka faisla
beech maidan mein nahi hota.
Kuch log jeetne se pehle
bahut der tak
haar jaise nazar aate hain.
Aur hum bhi…
Shayad unhi mein se ek hain.
Humne apni zindagi mein
bahut kuch khoya hai,
magar ek cheez abhi tak nahi khoyi—
Khud ko dobara khada karne ki himmat.
Kabhi hum toot kar roye hain,
kabhi chup-chaap aansu piye hain,
kabhi sajdon mein sar rakh kar
sirf itna kaha hai—
“Ya Allah…
humein samajh nahi aa raha
ke hum kis raaste par chalein,
bas Tu humara haath mat chhodna.”
Aur phir pata nahi kahan se
dil mein ek ajeeb sa sukoon utar aata hai…
Jaise koi keh raha ho—
“Sab kuch tumhari samajh ke mutabiq
nahi ho raha,
magar sab kuch khatam bhi nahi hua.”
Tab hum samajhte hain…
Ke shayad har der, haar nahi hoti.
Shayad kuch intezaar
humein us cheez ke liye tayyar kar rahe hote hain
jiske liye humne kabhi socha bhi nahi hota.
Shayad kuch logon ka chale jaana
humari saza nahi,
humari hifazat hoti hai.
Shayad kuch band darwaaze
humari nakaami nahi,
Allah ki taraf se ek naya raasta hote hain.
Aur shayad…
Jo hum aaj nahi samajh paa rahe,
kal wahi humari zindagi ka
sabse khoobsurat sabab ban jaaye.
Isliye ab hum jaldi mein nahi hain.
Na kisi ko peeche chhodne ki jaldi,
na kisi se aage nikalne ki.
Bas apni raah par chalna hai…
Chahe dheere chalein,
magar rukna nahi hai.
Chahe aankhon mein aansu hon,
magar umeed ko marne nahi dena hai.
Chahe dil thak jaaye,
magar dua karna nahi chhodna hai.
Aur chahe duniya
humein kitni baar bhi kahe
ke “ab kuch nahi badlega…”
Hum apne dil se kahenge—
“Abhi humari kahani baaki hai.”
Abhi ek subah aani hai
jahan hum bina kisi wajah ke muskuraayenge.
Abhi ek din aana hai
jab hum peeche mudkar
apne aaj ke dard ko dekhenge
aur kahenge—
“Achha hua…
hum us waqt toot kar bhi
rukey nahi.”
Abhi woh waqt baaki hai
jab humari khamoshi
humari kamzori nahi,
humari pehchaan banegi.
Abhi woh din baaki hai
jab jin logon ne humari aankhon mein
sirf thakaan dekhi thi,
woh unhi aankhon mein
ek alag hi roshni dekhenge.
Aur hum unhe kuch nahi kahenge…
Bas muskura denge.
Kyunki kuch jeete hue log
taaliyon ke mohtaaj nahi hote.
Unhe sirf itna pata hota hai
ke unhone apne aap ko
haar kar bhi
khud se juda rehne diya.
Hum bhi wahi karenge.
Girenge…
magar uth kar chalenge.
Tootenge…
magar bikhar kar khud ko khoenge nahi.
Royenge…
magar umeed ko aansuon mein bahaayenge nahi.
Thakenge…
magar safar ko khatam nahi samjhenge.
Aur ek din…
Jab zindagi humse poochegi—
“Itna sab seh kar bhi
tum rukey kyun nahi?”
To hum sirf itna kahenge—
“Kyunki hum jaante the
ke humari kahani ka sabse khoobsurat hissa
abhi likha jaana baaki hai.”
Isliye…
Aaj meri khamoshi ko
meri haar mat samajhna.
Aaj meri thakaan ko
meri kamzori mat samajhna.
Aaj meri aankhon ki nami ko
meri umeed ka janaza mat samajhna.
Hum bas thode thak gaye hain…
Zindagi se nahi,
bas un raaston se
jin par bahut der tak
akela chalna pada.
Magar dil mein abhi bhi
ek chhoti si roshni hai…
Aur jab tak woh roshni zinda hai,
tab tak hum bhi zinda hain.
Abhi khud ko samajhna baaki hai…
abhi khud ko paana baaki hai…
abhi kuch duaon ka qubool hona baaki hai…
abhi kuch logon ko galat saabit karna baaki hai…
abhi kuch khwaabon ko haqeeqat banana baaki hai…
Aur sabse badhkar—
Abhi humari zindagi ka
sabse khoobsurat safha
likhna baaki hai.
Safar mushkil hai…
magar khatam nahi.
Hum thake hue hain…
magar haare hue nahi.
Aur jab tak dil mein umeed baaki hai—
tab tak humari kahani bhi baaki hai.
