“Meri khamoshi ko mera khalipan mat samajhna; usmein woh saari baatein rehti hain jinhe duniya ko samjhate-samjhate main thak gaya. Ab main har dard bayan nahi karta—kuch Allah ko suna deta hoon, kuch waqt ko de deta hoon, aur kuch ko alfaaz bana kar apne dil se azaad kar deta hoon.”
-Zulfikar Inamdar
“Main Theek Hoon… Bas Pehle Jaisa Nahi”
Arz kiya hai…
Kisi ne poochha—
“Aajkal kaise ho?”
Maine muskura kar keh diya—
“Theek hoon…”
Ab use kaise samjhata
Ke theek hona
Aur khush hona
Do bilkul alag baatein hain.
Main theek hoon…
Subah uthta hoon,
Duniya ke saath chalta hoon,
Logon se milta hoon,
Hans leta hoon,
Zaroorat pade to
Doosron ko hausla bhi de deta hoon…
Bas kabhi kabhi
Apne hi dil ko hausla dete-dete
Thak jaata hoon.
Ek waqt tha
Jab dil mein kuch hota
To kisi apne ko dhoondh leta tha.
Ab dil bhar jaaye
To khamoshi dhoondhta hoon.
Kyunki dheere-dheere samajh aaya—
Har apna, dil ka pata nahi jaanta…
aur har haal poochhne wala
haal sunne ke liye nahi rukta.
Isliye ab
Main apne dard ka zikr
Bahut kam karta hoon.
Kisi ko kya bataun
Ke kuch raaton mein neend nahi,
Purani baatein aati hain…
Kuch chehre,
Kuch waade,
Kuch adhure khwab,
Kuch apne jo kabhi bahut apne the…
Aur phir dil poochhta hai—
“Kya waqt badal gaya,
ya log?”
Main jawaab dhoondhta hoon
Aur har baar
Khud ko hi thoda badla hua paata hoon.
Pehle kisi ke jaane ka darr tha,
Ab kisi ko rokne ki zid nahi.
Pehle kisi ki narazgi
Raaton ki neend le jaati thi,
Ab koi rooth jaaye
To dil kehta hai—
“Jise rehna hoga,
woh meri khamoshi mein bhi raasta dhoondh lega.”
Pehle main
Har galatfehmi saaf karta tha,
Har ilzaam ka jawaab deta tha,
Har rishta bachane ki
Aakhri koshish tak karta tha.
Phir ek din samajh aaya—
Har rishta bachate-bachate
main khud se hi rishta tod raha tha.
Us din se
Maine logon ko khona nahi…
Khud ko bachana seekha.
Ab meri zindagi mein
Log kam hain,
Magar shor bhi kam hai.
Mehfilein kam hain,
Magar dil mein sukoon ke liye
Thodi jagah zyada hai.
Aur haan…
Kabhi kabhi tanhai
Aaj bhi kaatne ko daudti hai.
Dil karta hai
Koi paas baith kar poochhe—
“Sach batao…
andar kya chal raha hai?”
Aur main bina ye soche
Ke saamne wala mujhe kamzor samjhega,
Apne dil ka darwaaza khol doon.
Magar phir
Ek purani aadat beech mein aa jaati hai—
Main muskura deta hoon.
Ajeeb hunar hai na?
Aankhon mein nami ho
Aur chehre par muskurahat…
Dil mein toofan ho
Aur zubaan par—
“Sab theek hai.”
Shayad waqt ke saath
Hum jhooth bolna nahi,
Apna dard tameez se chhupana seekh jaate hain.
Mere andar bhi
Bahut si baatein hain
Jo kabhi zubaan tak nahi aayi.
Kuch shikayatein
Jinhe kehne ka haq tha,
Magar keh nahi saka.
Kuch sawaal
Jinke jawaab chahiye the,
Magar poochh nahi saka.
Kuch log
Jinhe kehna tha—
“Tumhare badalne se
mujhe takleef hui thi…”
Magar phir socha,
Jise meri khamoshi
Samajh nahi aayi…
Use mere alfaaz
Kya samjhayenge?
Isliye likhne laga.
Kagaz ne kabhi
Meri baat beech mein nahi kaati.
Kalam ne kabhi nahi kaha—
“Tum bahut sochte ho.”
Alfaazon ne kabhi
Mere aansuon ka mazaak nahi banaya.
Main jo keh nahi saka,
Woh likhta gaya…
Aur dheere-dheere
Meri shayari
Mere dil ka woh kamra ban gayi,
Jahan main bina kisi darr ke
khud ho sakta hoon.
Log meri shayari padhkar
Kabhi kehte hain—
“Bahut gehra likhte ho…”
Main muskura deta hoon.
Unhe kya pata…
Gehre alfaaz
Kitabon se nahi aate,
Kabhi kabhi
Zindagi insaan ko itna gehra kar deti hai
Ke uske seedhe alfaaz bhi
Shayari ban jaate hain.
Main udaas insaan nahi hoon.
Mujhe aaj bhi
Chhoti si khushi par
Dil se hansna aata hai.
Mujhe aaj bhi
Apnon ki fikr hoti hai.
Aaj bhi koi mohabbat se
Do alfaaz keh de
To din khoobsurat lagne lagta hai.
Aaj bhi kisi ki dua mein
Apna naam sun loon
To dil bhar aata hai.
Bas ab farq itna hai—
Pehle dil har kisi ke liye khula tha,
ab darwaaze par tajurba khada rehta hai.
Woh poochhta hai—
“Ye shakhs sirf khushi mein aaya hai,
ya gham mein bhi rukega?”
“Ye sirf meri hansi chahta hai,
ya meri khamoshi bhi sambhal sakega?”
Kyunki umr ne
Ek baat bahut khoobsurati se samjha di—
Mohabbat woh nahi
jo aapki muskurahat se mohabbat kare…
Mohabbat woh hai
Jo ek din aapko khamosh paaye
Aur bina sawaal kiye
Aapke paas baith jaaye.
Main aaj bhi
Aise apne ki qadar karta hoon.
Jo mujhe badalne ki koshish na kare,
Bas samajhne ki koshish kare.
Jo meri kamiyon ka
Duniya mein zikr na kare,
Aur meri gair-maujoodgi mein bhi
Meri izzat ko
Apni maujoodgi jaisi hifazat de.
Aise log mil jaayein
To unhe sambhal kar rakhna chahiye…
Kyunki is duniya mein
Baat karne wale bahut milte hain,
Dil ki baat samajhne wale
bahut kam.
Aur ab…
Main apni zindagi se
Bahut bade waade nahi karta.
Bas itna chahta hoon—
Jo guzra
Uska bojh halka hota jaaye,
Jo mere paas hai
Uski qadar karta rahun,
Aur jo naseeb mein nahi
Uske peeche bhaagte-bhaagte
Apna aaj barbaad na karun.
Mujhe ab har kisi ko
Apni kahani samjhani bhi nahi.
Jise meri hansi dekhni hai,
Woh hansi dekh le.
Jise meri khamoshi samajhni hai,
Woh thoda thehar jaaye.
Aur jise meri zindagi par
Faisla sunana hai…
Use poori kahani jaane bina bhi
jo kehna hai kehne do.
Kyunki ab
Mujhe duniya ki nazron mein
Sahi sabit hone se zyada,
Apni nazron mein sachcha rehna pasand hai.
Haan…
Main theek hoon.
Bas pehle jaisa nahi.
Thoda kam bharosa karta hoon,
Thoda zyada samajhta hoon.
Thoda kam shor karta hoon,
Thoda zyada mehsoos karta hoon.
Logon ke peeche kam bhaagta hoon,
Apne sukoon ko zyada sambhalta hoon.
Aur jab kabhi
Dil bahut bhar jaata hai,
Main use duniya ke saamne
Khol nahi deta…
Kuch aansu dua mein rakh deta hoon,
Kuch baatein Allah se keh deta hoon,
Aur jo phir bhi reh jaaye—
Use alfaazon mein utaar deta hoon.
Shayad isi liye
Meri khamoshi khaali nahi…
Uske andar
Ek poori zindagi basti hai.
Aur agar kabhi
Meri kahani likhi jaaye,
To mere dard ko
Uska aakhri safha mat banana…
Aakhir mein itna zaroor likhna—
**“Woh bahut kuch seh kar badla zaroor tha,
magar uske andar mohabbat ab bhi baaki thi.
Duniya ne use khamosh kar diya tha…
magar usne apne dil ko patthar nahi hone diya.”** ❤️🌹
