Khwaabon Ki Wo Paakeezah Raatein 🌙✨ / The Nights I Left Behind 🌙✨:

“Kuch neendein bistar par nahi aati…
Woh sirf sukoon-e-dil walon ko naseeb hoti hain…”

“Some sleeps are not found in beds at night…
They belong to hearts that once carried light.”

– Zulfikar Inamdar

Khwaabon Ki Wo Paakeezah Raatein 🌙✨:

Arz kiya hai… ke…

Lauta de mujhe wo raate ai mere Rab…
Jo bina soch ke sojaya karta tha…
Na dil par kisi gham ka saya hota tha,
Na rooh par yaadon ka bojh saja hota tha…

Wo bhi kya daur tha…
Jab shaam dhalte hi sukoon utar aaya karta tha,
Aur aankhein bina kisi shor ke
Khamoshi ki aaghosh me kho jaya karti thi…

Na kisi ke badal jaane ka darr tha,
Na kisi ke chhod jaane ka andesha…
Na dil mohabbat ke imtihaan se guzra tha,
Na rooh ne hijr ka zeher piya tha…

Har raat ek dua jaisi lagti thi,
Har khwaab ibaadat ki tarah paakeezah tha…
Chaand bhi apnapan se jhaanka karta tha,
Aur sitaare khamoshi me saath diya karte the…

Phir waqt ne dheere dheere
Dil ke mausam badal diye…
Hansi ke diye bujhte gaye,
Aur aankhon me nami utarti gayi…

Ab to haal ye hai ke…
Raat aati hai magar sukoon nahi laati…
Neend aati bhi hai to
Yaadon ke shor se toot jaya karti hai…

Kabhi kisi ki baatein jaga deti hain,
Kabhi kisi ki khamoshi rula deti hai…
Aur kabhi dil itna bhar jaata hai
Ke insaan khud apne andar bikhar jaata hai…

Ai mere Rab…
Main thak gaya hoon is duniya ke shor se…
In rishton ke bojh se,
In umeedon se jo har roz toot jaati hain…

Lauta de mujhe wo masoom sa dil,
Jo har kisi me wafa dhoond liya karta tha…
Lauta de mujhe wo bachpan ki raatein,
Jahan maa ki duaaon me neend aa jaya karti thi…

Wo raatein…
Jahan takiya aansuon se nahi bheegta tha…
Jahan dil kisi ek shakhs ki yaad me
Saari raat nahi jalta tha…

Ab to chaand bhi ajnabi lagta hai,
Aur sitaare bhi khamosh rehte hain…
Dil ke zakhm itne gehre ho gaye hain
Ke hum muskuraate hue bhi rote rehte hain…

Bahut arsa ho gaya
Dil ko sukoon mehsoos kiye hue…
Bahut arsa ho gaya
Be-fikri se sote hue…

Ab to har raat
Apne saath ek qayamat laati hai…
Aur har subah
Insaan ko pehle se zyada thaka deti hai…

Ai mere Rab…
Agar meri qismat me sukoon nahi,
To kam az kam itna karam karde…
Ke yaadon ka ye shor tham jaaye,
Aur dil ke andar chalti hui jang so jaaye…

Kyunki ab ye haal ho gaya hai ke…
Jism thak kar so bhi jaaye to kya…
Rooh poori raat jaagti rehti hai…
Aur aankhein band hone ke baad bhi
Andar ek dard musalsal rota rehta hai… 💔

Hum ab bhi wahi hai… bas muskurana seekh liya hai,
Warna raaton ko toot kar rona aaj bhi aata hai…

Kabhi fursat mile to sochna zaroor…
Ek shakhs tha jo sirf tumhare sukoon ke liye dua karta tha… 🌹

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English Version:

The Nights I Left Behind 🌙✨:

A request is… that…

Bring back those nights, my Lord above,
When sleep would come untouched by love…
No storms were raging in my mind,
No wounds of memories trapped inside…

There was a time so soft, so pure,
When every heartbeat felt secure…
The moon would shine with gentle grace,
And peace would rest upon my face…

No fear of losing someone dear,
No silent drowning in despair…
No shattered dreams, no aching soul,
No lonely nights beyond control…

Each night arrived like whispered prayer,
With sacred calmness in the air…
The stars would sit beside my pain,
And heal my restless heart again…

But time, it changed the seasons deep,
And stole the innocence of sleep…
The laughter slowly faded thin,
While endless storms grew loud within…

Now every night becomes a war,
A broken heart behind closed doors…
Sleep comes near, then walks away,
As memories beg my soul to stay…

Sometimes a voice returns to me,
Sometimes it’s painful silence I see…
And sometimes tears fall so quietly,
Even my shadow abandons me…

Oh my Lord…
I’m tired of carrying unseen scars,
Tired of wishing upon dead stars…
Tired of hearts that fade with time,
And dreams that never stay as mine…

Bring back that child I used to be,
Who trusted love so easily…
Bring back those nights so warm, so mild,
When sleep arrived with prayers so wild…

Those nights…
When pillows never tasted tears…
When hearts were free from haunting fears…
When no one’s memory burned so deep,
That souls forgot the way to sleep…

Now even the moon feels cold and far,
And silence lives in every star…
These wounds inside have grown so wide,
I smile outside… but break inside…

It’s been forever since I knew
What peaceful sleeping used to do…
It’s been forever since my eyes
Closed without a thousand cries…

Now every night feels like goodbye,
And every dawn asks me why…
Why broken souls still breathe somehow,
While carrying storms they can’t allow…

Oh my Lord…
If peace is not written for me,
Then set my weary memories free…
Silence the wars inside my chest,
And let my shattered spirit rest…

Because these days, this is my plight…
My body sleeps… my soul stays bright…
Awake in darkness, drowned in pain,
Waiting for peace to come again… 💔

“The hardest sleep is not for tired eyes…
It is for the heart that cries in silence every night…” 🌹