🖤 “Woh Mera Nahi… Phir Bhi Mera Sa Hai”

“Har mohabbat ka anjaam milna nahi hota…
kuch mohabbatein bas dil mein jagah banati hain,
phir insaan umr bhar us jagah ko
kisi aur ke naam nahi kar paata.” ❤️‍🩹

-Zulfikar Inamdar

🖤 “Woh Mera Nahi… Phir Bhi Mera Sa Hai”

Arz kiya hai…

Woh mera nahi hai,
ye baat main khud se
na jaane kitni baar keh chuka hoon…
Magar dil hai ke maanta hi nahi,
use apna kehne ki zid nahi karta,
bas usse juda hone se darta hai.

Uske saath mera koi rishta nahi,
phir bhi uski khamoshi
mujhse sawaal karti hai…
Woh paas nahi hota,
phir bhi uski kami
har jagah mehsoos hoti hai.

Ajeeb sa rishta hai humara…
Na woh mera hai,
na main uska hoon,
phir bhi pata nahi kyun
uski ek muskurahat
meri poori duniya theek kar deti hai.

Kabhi woh apnepan se baat karta hai,
kabhi anjaan sa guzar jaata hai…
Kabhi lagta hai
shayad dil mein mere liye kuch hai,
aur kabhi uska rawaiya
saari umeedein tod jaata hai.

Magar main bhi ajeeb hoon…
Har baar toot kar
usi ke liye dua karta hoon.

Usne mujhe jo dard diya,
maine uska hisaab nahi rakha…
Bas uski khushi ka hisaab
aaj bhi dil mein rakhta hoon.

Kuch log zindagi mein
haasil karne ke liye nahi aate…
Woh bas itna kar jaate hain
ke unke baad
dil kisi aur ko
usi nazar se dekh hi nahi paata.

Maine bhi kabhi
uske saamne apni mohabbat ka
koi daawa nahi kiya…
Kyunki mujhe darr tha,
kahin meri mohabbat ka izhaar
uski azaadi na chheen le.

Isliye use chaha bhi,
aur usse kuch maanga bhi nahi.

Bas door se dekha,
khush hua,
kabhi roya,
kabhi khud ko samjhaya…
Aur har baar dil se yahi nikla—

“Ya Allah,
agar ye shakhs meri qismat mein nahi,
toh koi shikwa nahi…
bas iski qismat mein
kabhi meri wajah se gham na likhna.” 🤲🏻

Kabhi-kabhi sochta hoon,
agar woh ek din
mere saamne aakar pooch le—

“Tumne itna sab seh kar bhi
mujhse mohabbat kyun nahi chhodi?”

Toh shayad main hans doon…
Aur kahun—

“Mohabbat chhodne ka faisla
maine kabhi kiya hi nahi tha…
kyunki tumhe chahna
meri aadat nahi,
meri fitrat ban chuki thi.”

Haan,
kabhi usse gussa bhi aata hai…
Kabhi dil karta hai
sab kuch keh doon—
har shikayat,
har aansu,
har woh raat
jo uski yaad mein guzri…

Lekin phir uska chehra yaad aata hai,
aur meri saari narazgi
khamosh ho jaati hai.

Kyunki jisse dil sach mein chahta hai,
uske khilaaf alfaaz bhi
dil ko bojh lagne lagte hain.

Aaj bhi agar woh
mujhe bula le,
toh main apni saari shikayatein
peeche chhod kar chala jaaunga…

Agar woh kahe
“thodi der baithoge?”
toh shayad meri aankhein
saalon ka intezaar
usi ek pal mein bhool jaayengi.

Aur agar woh kahe—
“Mujhe tumhari zaroorat hai…”

Toh main usse ye nahi poochunga
ke “Jab mujhe tumhari zaroorat thi,
tab tum kahan the?”

Main bas itna kahunga—

“Main yahin tha…
shayad tumhe der se meri yaad aayi,
magar mujhe tumhari yaad
kabhi gayi hi nahi.” ❤️‍🩹

Aur agar aakhir mein
hamari kahani ka milna likha hi nahi,
toh bhi main Allah se
apni mohabbat ka sila nahi maangunga…

Bas dua karunga—

“Ya Rab,
jo mere dil ke itne qareeb raha,
use apni rehmat ke
utna hi qareeb rakhna…
Chahe meri zindagi mein na ho,
magar teri hifazat mein hamesha rahe.” 🤲🏻🌙

Shayad isi ka naam mohabbat hai…

Kisi ko paane ki khwahish se zyada,
uske khush rehne ki dua karna.

Aur shayad isi liye
woh mera nahi hai…

Lekin meri har dua mein
aaj bhi uska zikr hota hai. ❤️‍🩹🌹