Abhi Imtihaan Baaki Hai:

“Main qarzdaar zaroor ho gaya hoon,
magar umeed se khaali nahi…
Duniya mera hisaab poochh rahi hai,
aur main apne Rab ki rehmat ka intezaar kar raha hoon.
Mujhe yakeen hai—
ek din meri majbooriyon se zyada
mere Rab ki rehmat ka zikr hoga.”

-Zulfikar Inamdar

Abhi Imtihaan Baaki Hai:

Arz kiya hai…

Main thak gaya hoon apni zindagi se,
Apnon ki khwahishein poori karte-karte,
Khud ki har khwahish ko dafan karta gaya,
Aur na jaane kab… karzdaar hota gaya.

Jinke chehron ki muskaan meri khushi hua karti thi,
Unki zarooraton mein apni zarooratein bhoolta gaya,
Kisi ko kami mehsoos na ho mere hote hue,
Bas isi zid mein main khud ko khota gaya.

Ab log poochhte hain—
“Paise kab tak dega? Waada to kal ka tha…”
Main khamosh ho jaata hoon,
Kyunki jo jawaab zubaan dena chahti hai,
Use meri majbooriyan rok leti hain.

Dil tharra jaata hai har sawaal par,
Phone ki har ghanti se dhadkan badh jaati hai,
Kisi ka naam screen par dikh jaaye to lagta hai,
Shayad phir kisi puraane waade ki
Tareekh yaad dilayi jaayegi.

Kya jawaab doon un logon ko?
Ke niyyat meri aaj bhi beimaan nahi hui,
Bas halaat mere waadon se tez nikle…
Main dena aaj bhi sabka chahta hoon,
Magar meri jeb meri niyyat ka saath nahi deti.

Sukoon jaise rooth gaya hai mujhse,
Neend bhi ab hisaab poochh kar aati hai,
Aankhein band karta hoon to qarz yaad aata hai,
Aankhein kholta hoon to zimmedari saamne khadi milti hai.

Zindagi kuch yun imtihaan le rahi hai,
Jaise bagair kitaab khole sawaal de diye gaye hon,
Aur main har roz khaali panne par
Apni majbooriyon se jawaab likh raha hoon.

Kisi se poochhta hoon—
“Kuch paise mil sakenge…?”
Phir sawaal khud hi mujhse poochhta hai—
“Agar mil bhi gaye to lautayega kaise?”

Ek qarz chukane ke liye
Doosre darwaaze par dastak dena,
Ye zindagi bhi kya ajeeb mod par le aayi hai…
Jahan madad milne ki dua bhi karta hoon,
Aur madad mil jaaye to uska bojh sochkar darr bhi lagta hai.

Meri zindagi mein tankhwa bhi
Bas aati hai naam ke liye,
Apni shareek-e-hayat ke haath mein
Poori kamaai rakh deta hoon.

Sochta hoon—
Ghar mein kisi chehre par fikr na aaye,
Meri wajah se kisi ki zaroorat adhuri na reh jaaye,
Magar sabki zindagi sambhalte-sambhalte
Meri apni zindagi mujhse sawaal karne lagi hai—

“Zulfikar, tera sukoon kahan hai?”

Main muskura kar baat taal deta hoon,
Kyunki kuch sawaalon ke jawaab
Aansu jaante hain… alfaaz nahi.

Din khatam ho rahe hain,
Raatein karwatein badal rahi hain,
Calendar ki tareekhein aage badh rahi hain,
Magar meri pareshaaniyaan
Jaise wahi khadi mera intezaar kar rahi hain.

Kabhi sochta hoon—
Ye imtihaan meri zindagi se kaise khatam honge?
Kab woh subah aayegi
Jab uthte hi paison ka khayal nahi aayega?

Kab phone bajega
Aur dil ghabrayega nahi?

Kab kisi apne ki khwahish sunkar
Pehle jeb nahi, dil jawaab dega?

Kab raat ko sote waqt
Kal kis ko kya dena hai ye nahi,
Kal kya khoobsurat karna hai
Ye soch kar aankhein band hongi?

Phir main apne Rab ko yaad karta hoon…

Wohi Rab,
Jisne mujhe kal bhi sambhala tha,
Jisne mere un aansuon ko bhi dekha
Jo maine duniya se chhupa kar bahaaye.

Roz dua karta hoon—

“Ya Allah,
Mujhe itna mat de ke main Tujhe bhool jaun,
Bas itna ata farma
Ke kisi ke saamne majboori mein haath na phailana pade.
Mere qarz ada karne ke raaste khol de,
Meri rizq mein barkat ata farma,
Mere ghar ko sukoon de,
Aur mere dil se ye bojh halka kar de.”

Phir Surah Ad-Duha ke ma’ani
Dil mein utaarne ki koshish karta hoon…

Aur apne aap se kehta hoon—

Agar aaj raat gehri hai
To iska matlab ye nahi
Ke subah ka waada khatam ho gaya.

Agar aaj mere haath khaali hain
To iska matlab ye nahi
Ke mere Rab ke khazane bhi khaali hain.

Agar aaj raaste band nazar aa rahe hain,
To mumkin hai mere Rab ne
Mere liye koi aisa darwaaza rakha ho
Jise meri nazar abhi dekh nahi paa rahi.

Bas isi umeed ko seene se laga kar
Main har raat so jaata hoon…

Kal shayad kuch badlega,
Kal shayad koi raasta niklega,
Kal shayad ye bojh halka hoga,
Kal shayad meri dua
Mere naseeb ka darwaaza khatkhatayegi.

Aur agar kal bhi imtihaan raha,
To main phir apne Rab ke saamne khada hounga,
Phir dua karunga,
Phir umeed karunga…

Kyunki duniya ke darwaazon se
Thak kar laut sakta hoon main,

Magar apne Rab ke dar se
Mayoos hokar lautna
Maine abhi seekha nahi.