“Mujhe har kisi ki nazar mein achha banne ka shauq nahi;
-Zulfikar Inamdar
bas apni nazar mein girna nahi chahta.
Log meri shakhsiyat ka faisla apne tajurbe se karenge,
magar main apna kirdaar unke rawaiye se nahi badlunga.
Jisne dil se samjha, uske liye poora apna hoon—
aur jisne nahi samjha, usse bhi koi shikayat nahi.”
“Haan… Main Aisa Hi Hoon”
Arz kiya hai…
Main har mehfil ki jaan ban jaun,
Ye zaroori nahi samajhta,
Main jaisa hoon, bas waisa hi nazar aata hoon,
Khud ko kisi ki pasand ke mutabiq
Roz badalna nahi jaanta.
Mujhe dikhawa karna nahi aata,
Na rishton ka,
Na mohabbat ka,
Na apni haisiyat ka.
Jo hai, saamne hai…
Dil bhi,
kamiyaan bhi,
aur main bhi.
Mere chehre par jo muskurahat dikhti hai,
Zaroori nahi uske peeche koi dard na ho,
Bas maine apni pareshaaniyon ko
Har mehfil ka kissa banana nahi seekha.
Main hasta hoon,
Mazaak karta hoon,
Kabhi bachchon jaisi shararat bhi kar leta hoon…
Kyunki zindagi ne
Rone ki wajahen to bahut di hain,
Hansne ki wajah
Kabhi kabhi khud banani padti hai.
Main zyada logon se nahi judta,
Magar jisse judta hoon
Usse aadha rishta nahi rakhta.
Mujhe “Hi-Hello” wale
Hazaar rishte nahi chahiye,
Bas do-chaar log aise chahiye
Jinke saamne mujhe ye kehna na pade—
“Main theek hoon.”
Woh mera chehra dekhkar hi keh dein—
“Nahi…
aaj kuch to baat hai.”
Bas…
Aise logon ke saamne
Main apni saari mazbooti utaar deta hoon.
Kyunki duniya ke saamne
Mazboot rehna aasaan hai,
Apnon ke saamne kamzor ho paana
Bahut badi rahat hai.
Main har kisi ko
Apni zindagi mein jagah nahi deta,
Isliye nahi ke mujhe log pasand nahi…
Bas dil ne kuch tajurbon ke baad
Darwaaze par ek chhota sa sawaal rakh diya hai—
“Aane wala sirf waqt guzarega,
ya waqt bura hua to saath bhi rahega?”
Kyunki log milte bahut hain,
Magar nibhane wale
Aaj bhi ginne padte hain.
Main kisi se dushmani lekar
Sona pasand nahi karta,
Lekin iska matlab ye bhi nahi
Ke har baar dil todne wale ko
Wahi purani jagah deta rahun.
Maaf kar deta hoon…
Magar waqt ke saath
Ek baat seekh gaya hoon—
Maaf kar dena zaroori hai,
magar har baar wahi bharosa karna zaroori nahi.
Main badla nahi leta,
Bas kabhi kabhi
Khud ko thoda peeche kar leta hoon.
Na shor,
Na shikayat,
Na ilzaam…
Bas khamoshi se
Apni jagah badal leta hoon.
Aur phir log kehte hain—
“Tum badal gaye.”
Main muskura deta hoon.
Kaise samjhaun…
Main badla nahi,
bas samajh gaya hoon.
Mujhe har baat ka jawaab dena bhi
Ab zaroori nahi lagta.
Kabhi saamne wala sahi ho
To maan leta hoon,
Aur kabhi mujhe pata ho
Ke main sahi hoon…
Tab bhi chup reh leta hoon.
Kyunki ek umr ke baad
Insaan ko har behas jeetne ka shauq nahi rehta,
Bas apna sukoon bachane ka hunar aa jaata hai.
Haan, main emotional hoon…
Kisi apne ka badla hua lehja
Mujhe mehsoos ho jaata hai,
Kisi ki khamoshi
Mujhe pareshaan kar deti hai,
Koi dil ke kareeb ho
To uski chhoti si baat bhi
Kabhi kabhi bahut gehri lagti hai.
Magar ye meri kamzori nahi…
Jis dil mein mohabbat zyada hoti hai,
use mehsoos bhi zyada hota hai.
Main rishton mein hisaab nahi rakhta.
Tumne mujhe kitni baar phone kiya,
Maine kitni baar kiya,
Tumne mere liye kya kiya,
Maine tumhare liye kya kiya…
Ye sab likhne ke liye
Mere dil mein koi diary nahi.
Bas itna jaanta hoon—
Tum mere apne ho,
to jitna mujhse banega, main karunga.
Haan…
Isi aadat ne
Kabhi kabhi mujhe takleef bhi di hai.
Kyunki main jise apna maanta hoon,
Usse thodi si umeed bhi rakh leta hoon.
Aur zindagi ne sikhaya hai—
Takleef aksar gairon se nahi hoti,
dard wahi deta hai
jahan dil ne apnapan rakha hota hai.
Phir bhi…
Main apni fitrat badalna nahi chahta.
Kisi ne mere saath bura kiya
To main bhi bura ban jaun,
Ye kaisa insaaf hua?
Uske kirdaar ka faisla
Mere kirdaar ko kyun badle?
Woh apni fitrat ka zimmedar hai,
main apni fitrat ka.
Main aaj bhi kisi ko rota dekhun
To dil bhaari ho jaata hai,
Aaj bhi kisi dost ki pareshaani sunun
To sochta hoon
Kuch kar sakta hoon kya?
Aaj bhi koi apna kahe
“Mujhe tumhari zaroorat hai…”
To apni pareshaani
Kuch der ke liye bhool jaata hoon.
Shayad main practical duniya ke liye
Thoda zyada dil se jeeta hoon…
Magar mujhe aisa hi rehna pasand hai.
Mujhe bahut ameer dikhna nahi,
Bas itna chahta hoon
Ke kisi zarooratmand ke saamne
Meri jeb se pehle
Mera dil gareeb na ho.
Mujhe bahut mashhoor hona nahi,
Bas meri gair-maujoodgi mein
Koi mera naam lekar itna keh de—
“Insaan dil ka achha tha.”
Mere liye
Ye bhi bahut badi kamyabi hogi.
Main perfect nahi hoon…
Galtiyaan mujhse bhi hoti hain,
Gussa mujhe bhi aata hai,
Kabhi alfaaz galat nikal jaate hain,
Kabhi main bhi kisi ko samajh nahi paata.
Magar ek cheez ki koshish karta hoon—
Dil mein mail lekar
rishta na nibhaun.
Mohabbat hai to saamne ho,
Narazgi hai to woh bhi saamne ho,
Mujhe woh rishte pasand nahi
Jahan saamne gale milte hain
Aur peeche kirdaar badal jaata hai.
Main tanha reh lunga…
Magar do chehron ke beech
apna ek chehra nahi kho sakta.
Ab zindagi ke is mod par
Meri khwahishein bhi bahut saadgi wali hain.
Kuch sache rishte,
Ghar mein sukoon,
Halal rizq mein barkat,
Apnon ke chehre par muskurahat,
Aur raat ko sote waqt
Dil mein kisi ke liye nafrat na ho.
Bas…
Itna mil jaaye
To mujhe zindagi se
Koi badi shikayat nahi.
Aur haan…
Jo mujhe samajh jaate hain,
Unke saamne main waqai
Apna poora dil rakh deta hoon.
Na koi parda,
Na koi hisaab,
Na koi dikhawa.
Kyunki mujhe lagta hai—
Zindagi mein woh log bahut qeemti hote hain
jinse milne ke baad insaan ko
khud se kuch chhupana na pade.
Baaki duniya
Mere baare mein kya sochti hai…
Ab uska bojh uthana
Maine chhod diya hai.
Kisi ko main zyada bolne wala lagunga,
Kisi ko khamosh,
Kisi ko emotional,
Kisi ko ajeeb,
Kisi ko achha,
Aur shayad kisi ko bilkul achha nahi.
Sabki nazar ka apna aaina hai…
main har aaine mein ek jaisa kaise dikh sakta hoon?
Isliye ab bas
Ek hi koshish hai—
Jab raat ko aayine mein
Khud se nazar mile,
To aankhein jhukani na padein.
Aur dil keh sake—
“Haan… kamiyaan bahut hain tujhmein,
magar tu nakli nahi hai.”
Bas yahi main hoon…
Thoda hasta hua,
Thoda toota hua,
Thoda samajhdaar,
Thoda aaj bhi bachcha,
Kuch logon se door,
Kuch logon ke behad kareeb,
Duniya ke liye shayad
Ek aam sa insaan…
Magar jo mere dil mein utar gaya,
uske liye main aaj bhi
poora ka poora apna hoon.
Aur agar koi mujhse poochhe—
“Aakhir tum kaise insaan ho?”
To main muskura kar bas itna kahunga—
**“Main achha dikhne ki koshish nahi karta…
bas koshish karta hoon
ke kisi ki zindagi mein meri wajah se
insaniyat buri na lage.”** ❤️
