“Mujhe samajhne ke liye mera chehra mat padhna; meri khamoshiyon tak aana. Wahan tumhe ek aisa insaan milega jo kai baar toota, kai baar tanha hua, phir bhi usne dil se mohabbat karna nahi chhoda. Shayad main perfect nahi hoon—magar jo bhi hoon, dil se hoon.”
-Zulfikar Inamdar
“Main Khud Se Mila To Pata Chala…”
Arz kiya hai…
Kabhi kabhi raat ki khamoshi mein
Main khud ke saamne baith jaata hoon,
Duniya se nahi…
Bas apne aap se ek sawaal karta hoon—
Aakhir main hoon kaun?
Woh jo sabke saamne hasta hai?
Ya woh jo tanhai mein
Apni aankhon se baatein karta hai?
Woh jo har kisi se kehta hai—
“Fikr mat karo, sab theek ho jaayega…”
Ya woh
Jo khud pareshaan hokar bhi
Kisi se ye nahi poochh paata—
“Mere liye bhi sab theek ho jaayega na?”
Pata nahi…
Shayad main dono hoon.
Thoda duniya ko dikhne wala,
Aur bahut saara
Duniya se chhupa hua.
Mere chehre ko dekhkar
Mera haal mat poochhna…
Chehre ne to saalon se
Dil ki baat chhupane ka
Hunar seekh liya hai.
Agar mujhe samajhna hai
To meri aankhon ke paas
Thodi der theharna…
Wahan tumhe kuch adhure khwab milenge,
Kuch apnon ki yaadein,
Kuch guzre hue lamhe,
Kuch ankahi shikayatein,
Aur ek insaan…
Jo tootne ke baad bhi
bura hona nahi seekh saka.
Haan, main wahi hoon.
Jise chhoti-chhoti baatein
Aaj bhi khush kar deti hain.
Kisi apne ka achanak phone,
Kisi purane dost ka
“Yaad aa rahe the yaar…”
Ghar mein kisi ki hansi,
Subah ki ek achhi khabar,
Kisi ki sachchi dua…
Mere liye khushi ko
Hamesha bahut bada hona zaroori nahi.
Kabhi kabhi
Ek sachcha jumla hi
Poore din ko khoobsurat bana deta hai.
Aur dard?
Woh bhi ajeeb hai mera…
Badi museebaton mein
Main aksar mazboot rehta hoon,
Magar kisi apne ka
Thoda sa badla hua lehja
Dil mein bahut door tak utar jaata hai.
Shayad isliye
Ke gairon se mujhe
Zyada umeed nahi hoti…
Dil wahi tootne se darta hai
jahan usne apnapan rakha ho.
Main logon se
Bahut jaldi naraz nahi hota,
Magar kisi ko apna maan loon
To uski chhoti si berukhi bhi
Mehsoos kar leta hoon.
Koi kahe—
“Tum bahut sochte ho…”
Haan, shayad.
Kyunki main alfaaz hi nahi,
Lehje bhi yaad rakhta hoon.
Main mulaqat hi nahi,
Us mulaqat mein mehsoos hua
Apnapan bhi yaad rakhta hoon.
Kisne mushkil waqt mein
Mera haal poochha tha,
Kisne meri khamoshi ko
Bina kahe samjha tha,
Aur kisne
Meri zaroorat ke waqt
Apni masroofiyat ka bahaana banaya tha…
Sab yaad rehta hai.
Badla lene ke liye nahi—
Bas dobara khud ko
usi jagah tootne se bachane ke liye.
Main bhi ajeeb insaan hoon…
Kisi se dil jud jaaye
To uske liye waqt nikal leta hoon,
Khud pareshaan rahun
Phir bhi uski pareshaani sun leta hoon,
Apni aankhon mein nami ho
Phir bhi usse hansa deta hoon.
Aur phir raat ko
Jab sab apni duniya mein chale jaate hain,
Main apni khamoshi ke paas laut aata hoon.
Kabhi kabhi sochta hoon—
Jo insaan sabko sambhalta hai,
use kaun sambhalta hoga?
Phir khud hi muskura deta hoon.
Shayad isi ka naam
Bada hona hai…
Apne aansu khud ponchhna,
Aur subah phir se
Sabke saamne muskurana.
Magar meri muskurahat ko
Jhooth mat samajhna.
Main dard mein bhi
Sach mein hans leta hoon.
Kyunki maine zindagi se
Ek baat seekhi hai—
Dard ko izzat do,
magar use apni poori pehchaan mat bana do.
Meri zindagi mein
Bahut kuch adhura hai.
Kuch khwab
Jo waqt se haar gaye,
Kuch rishte
Jo faaslon mein kho gaye,
Kuch log
Jinhe main rokna chahta tha
Magar rok nahi saka,
Aur kuch baatein
Jo dil mein reh gayin
Magar kabhi keh nahi saka.
Lekin har adhuri cheez ko
Ab badnaseebi nahi maanta.
Kuch adhure kisse hi to
Insaan ko gehra banate hain.
Agar har dua
Waise hi qubool ho jaati
Jaise maine maangi thi,
To shayad mujhe
Sabr ka matlab hi na pata chalta.
Agar har shakhs
Umr bhar saath rehta,
To shayad mujhe
Yaadon ki qeemat na samajh aati.
Agar kabhi dil na tootta,
To shayad main ye bhi na jaan paata
Ke tootne ke baad
Khud ko dobara jodna
Kitni badi kamyabi hoti hai.
Isliye ab
Main apne guzre hue waqt se
Shikayat kam karta hoon.
Usne mujhse kuch cheezein cheeni hain…
Magar mujhe mujhse milaya bhi hai.
Ab main jaanta hoon
Ke har kisi ko khush rakhna
Meri zimmedari nahi.
Har rishta bachana
Meri zimmedari nahi.
Har ilzaam ka jawaab dena
Meri zimmedari nahi.
Aur har jaane wale ko
Rokna bhi zaroori nahi.
Kuch logon ko
Dua ke saath vida kar dena hi
Behtar hota hai.
Kyunki mohabbat ka matlab
Har haal mein pakad kar rakhna nahi…
Kabhi kabhi mohabbat
Khamoshi se keh deti hai—
“Tum khush raho…
chahe meri zindagi se door hi kyun na raho.”
Main ab bhi mohabbat karta hoon.
Doston se,
Apnon se,
Purani yaadon se,
Baarish ki khushboo se,
Khamosh raaton se,
Aur un chand logon se
Jinke saamne mujhe
Apne chehre par koi chehra
Pehanna nahi padta.
Mujhe aise log bahut nahi chahiye.
Bas do-chaar hon…
Magar jab main chup ho jaun
To woh meri khamoshi ko
Meri doori na samjhein.
Jab main thak jaun
To mujhe kamzor na samjhein.
Aur jab main toot jaun
To mere tukde ginne ke bajaye
Mere paas baith jaayein.
Kyunki ek umr ke baad
Insaan ko mashware kam…
Apnapan zyada chahiye hota hai.
Main perfect nahi hoon.
Mere andar gussa bhi hai,
Zid bhi hai,
Kamiyaan bhi hain,
Kabhi galat bol deta hoon,
Kabhi galat samajh leta hoon,
Kabhi kisi apne se
Zyada umeed kar leta hoon.
Magar ek cheez
Aaj bhi bachakar rakhi hai—
Dil mein kisi ke liye
jaan-boojhkar bura karne ki jagah nahi.
Jisne mujhe dard diya
Uske liye bhi dua kar leta hoon.
Isliye nahi
Ke dard yaad nahi…
Balki isliye
Ke kisi ke diye hue zakhm ko
Apne kirdaar ki pehchaan
Nahi banana chahta.
Ab agar koi poochhe—
“Tum kaun ho?”
To shayad main
Apna naam batakar chup na ho jaun.
Main kahunga—
Main woh hoon
Jise zindagi ne kai baar rulaya,
Magar aansuon ne
Mohabbat karna nahi bhulaya.
Main woh hoon
Jise logon ne kabhi samjha,
Kabhi galat samjha…
Magar jisne dheere-dheere
Khud ko samajhna seekh liya.
Main woh hoon
Jo kabhi bheed mein bhi tanha ho jaata hai,
Aur kabhi tanhai mein bhi
Apne Rab ko yaad karke
Khud ko akela nahi paata.
Main woh hoon
Jo guzre hue kal ko
Dil mein rakhta zaroor hai,
Magar uski wajah se
Aane wale kal ka darwaaza
Band nahi karta.
Main thoda sa dard hoon,
Thoda sa sukoon,
Thodi si nadani,
Thoda sa tajurba,
Kuch adhure khwab,
Kuch poori hui duaen,
Kuch purane zakhm,
Aur bahut saari umeed.
Main ek mukammal kahani nahi…
Main roz likha jaane wala
ek naya safha hoon.
Aur shayad
Mujhe khud ko samajhne mein
Aadhi zindagi isliye lag gayi…
Kyunki main hamesha
Doosron ke dil mein
Apni jagah dhoondhta raha.
Jis din apne dil mein
Khud ke liye jagah bana li…
Us din pehli baar
main khud se mila. ❤️
Aur aaj aayine mein
Apne aap ko dekhkar
Bas itna keh pata hoon—
**“Main bahut khaas nahi…
magar jo hoon, sachcha hoon.
Main poora nahi…
magar nakli bhi nahi.
Main toot kar bhi mohabbat kar sakta hoon—
shayad meri sabse khoobsurat pehchaan
bas itni si hai.”** ❤️🌹
