“Main ab kisi ko rokta nahi, manata nahi, aur har baat par safai bhi nahi deta. Ye ghamand nahi—bahut arse tak har rishta bachate-bachate aayi hui thakan hai. Ab jo dil se rahega, use dil mein rakhunga; jo jaana chahega, use dua ke saath dehleez tak chhod aaunga. Magar kisi ko rokne ke liye ab khud ko nahi khounga.”
-Zulfikar Inamdar
“Ab Manane Ka Dil Nahi Karta”:
Arz kiya hai…
Main bardasht ke us dar par aa chuka hoon,
Jahan koi mujhse rooth jaaye
To ab use manane ka dil nahi karta.
Pehle kisi apne ka lehja badalta tha
To raat bhar socha karta tha—
Meri kaunsi baat buri lagi hogi?
Ab koi naraaz ho
To dil bas itna kehta hai—
“Agar rishta sirf mere manane se zinda hai,
to shayad woh pehle hi mar chuka tha.”
Bahut mana liya logon ko,
Bahut samjha liya,
Bahut baar apni galti na hote hue bhi
“Maaf kar do” keh diya…
Sirf isliye
Ke rishta toot na jaaye.
Magar har baar rishta bachate-bachate
Ek shakhs mujhse door hota gaya—
Main khud.
Ab koi kahe—
“Main tumhari duniya se door jaana chahta hoon…”
To pehle ki tarah
Uska haath pakadne ka dil nahi karta.
Dil karta hai
Darwaaza khol doon,
Dehleez tak saath chalun,
Aur bade adab se keh doon—
“Raasta tumne chuna hai,
main tumhe rokunga nahi…
bas lautna kabhi to wahi dil mat dhoondhna
jise aaj tum chhod kar ja rahe ho.”
Kyunki kuch darwaaze
Gusse mein band nahi hote…
Thak kar band ho jaate hain.
Aur jo dil thak kar band ho jaaye,
Us par dastak ki awaaz bhi
Bahut der se pahunchti hai.
Kabhi koi gusse mein
Mujhe sakht alfaaz keh de,
To ab jawaab dene ka bhi
Dil nahi karta.
Pehle khoon garam hota tha,
Ab aankhein bas saamne wale ko dekhti hain…
Aur dil kehta hai—
“Tumhe jo samajhna hai samajh lo,
main har shakhs ki adalat mein
apni safai dete-dete thak gaya hoon.”
Zindagi se ladte-ladte
Main haar nahi gaya…
Bas shor karna chhod diya hai.
Pehle takleef hoti thi
To bata deta tha,
Ab takleef hoti hai
To chup ho jaata hoon.
Pehle aansu aaye
To kisi apne ko dhoondhta tha,
Ab aankhein bhar aayein
To nazar jhuka leta hoon…
Kyunki maine dekha hai—
Har koi aansu ponchhne nahi aata,
kuch log sirf wajah jaanne aate hain.
Maine apni zindagi mein
Bahut se rishte bachaye hain,
Kabhi jhuk kar,
Kabhi chup rehkar,
Kabhi apni baat wapas lekar,
Kabhi apna dard chhupa kar.
Magar ab samajh aaya—
Har baar jhukne wala
Rishta nahi bacha raha hota,
Kabhi kabhi woh
Dheere-dheere khud ko mita raha hota hai.
Isliye ab meri khamoshi ko
Guroor mat samajhna.
Ye un hazaar jawaabon ka qabristan hai
Jo main de sakta tha…
Magar maine diye nahi.
Meri doori ko nafrat mat samajhna.
Main aaj bhi kisi ka bura nahi chahta,
Bas ab har kisi ko
Apna sukoon barbaad karne ka
Haq nahi deta.
Aur meri muskurahat dekhkar
Ye bhi mat samajhna
Ke sab theek hai…
Kuch log hansna isliye nahi seekhte
Ke unke paas gham nahi,
Woh hansna isliye seekhte hain
Kyunki har gham ka tamaasha banana
Unhe manzoor nahi hota.
Haan…
Main thak gaya hoon.
Magar zindagi se nahi—
Un umeedon se
Jo galat logon se laga baitha tha.
Un rishton se
Jinhe akela uthata raha.
Un safaiyon se
Jo mujhe kabhi deni hi nahi chahiye thi.
Aur un logon ko rokne se
Jinka dil kab ka ja chuka tha.
Ab jo rehna chahe—
Dil se rahe.
Jo jaana chahe—
Dua ke saath jaaye.
Jo samajhna chahe—
Meri khamoshi ke paas baith jaaye.
Aur jo galat samajhna chahe…
Uske peeche bhaag kar
Apna sach sabit karne ki
Ab mujh mein himmat nahi.
Main bura nahi hua…
Bas thak kar samajhdaar ho gaya hoon.
Mera dil pathar nahi hua…
Bas ab har haath mein
apna dil rakh dene ki aadat chhoot gayi hai.
Aur meri khamoshi meri haar nahi…
Ye meri zindagi ka woh maqam hai
Jahan main duniya se keh raha hoon—
“Bahut lad liya tumse…
ab thodi der mujhe
khud ke saath rehne do.”
Ho sakta hai kal
Main phir khul kar hansun,
Phir kisi par bharosa karun,
Phir kisi ko dil se apna kahun…
Kyunki mere andar ka insaan
Thaka zaroor hai,
Khatam nahi hua.
Aur shayad meri sabse badi jeet
Yahi hogi—
Itna kuch sehne ke baad bhi
Main kisi ke jaisa bura na banun,
Kisi ke diye zakhm ko
Apni fitrat na banaun,
Aur ek din aayine mein khud ko dekhkar
Itminaan se keh sakun—
**“Duniya ne mujhe khamosh zaroor kiya…
magar mere andar ka insaan
aaj bhi zinda hai.”** ❤️
