“Waqt ne meri khwahishein kam nahi ki, unki pehchaan badal di. Ab har cheez haasil karne ki tamanna nahi; bas dil par bojh na ho, niyat par daag na ho, apne khush rahen aur Rab raazi rahe. Ek umr ke baad insaan ko duniya kam aur sukoon zyada chahiye hota hai.”
-Zulfikar Inamdar
“Ab Khwahish Sirf Sukoon Ki Hai…”
Arz kiya hai…
Ek umr thi
Jab zindagi se bahut kuch maanga karta tha…
Thodi shohrat,
Thodi mohabbat,
Thoda apnapan,
Kuch apne khwab,
Kuch apnon ke khwab…
Har subah kisi nayi umeed ke saath uthta tha,
Har raat kisi naye kal ka
Hisaab lagaya karta tha.
Phir waqt guzarta gaya…
Kuch khwahishein poori hui,
Kuch raste mein reh gayin,
Kuch apne saath chale,
Kuch apnapan dikhakar chale gaye…
Aur dheere-dheere samajh aaya—
Zindagi har woh cheez nahi deti
Jise hum dil se maangte hain,
Magar har woh sabaq zaroor de jaati hai
Jiski humein zaroorat hoti hai.
Ab main pehle jaisa nahi raha.
Pehle koi naraaz hota
To manane chala jaata tha,
Koi door hota
To wajah dhoondhta tha,
Koi galat samajhta
To safai deta tha,
Koi dil dukhata
To raat bhar sochta tha—
“Aakhir meri galti kya thi?”
Ab dil thoda samajhdaar ho gaya hai.
Koi rehna chahe
To dil mein jagah hai,
Koi jaana chahe
To darwaaza khula hai.
Nafrat kisi se aaj bhi nahi…
Bas ab kisi ko rokne ke liye
Khud ko khona nahi chahta.
Bahut baar
Logon ne mere sabr ko kamzori samjha,
Meri khamoshi ko meri haar,
Meri mohabbat ko zaroorat,
Aur mere jhuk jaane ko
Apni jeet samajh liya.
Main chup raha…
Isliye nahi
Ke mere paas jawaab nahi tha.
Bas har jang jeetna
Zaroori nahi laga.
Kyunki waqt ne sikha diya—
Kuch logon ko jawaab alfaaz nahi,
Aapki khamoshi aur waqt deta hai.
Maine bhi zindagi mein
Galtiyan ki hain.
Kuch logon ko zaroorat se zyada apna maana,
Kuch se zaroorat se zyada umeed rakhi,
Kuch rishton ko
Unki umr se zyada kheenchta raha,
Aur kuch darwaazon par
Bahut der tak dastak deta raha…
Jabki andar se
Kab ka faisla ho chuka tha
Ke mere liye jagah nahi.
Aaj sochta hoon—
Kaash kisi ko manane se pehle
Kabhi khud ko bhi mana liya hota.
Kaash doosron ki khushi ke saath
Apne dil ka bhi haal poochha hota.
Kaash har baar
“Main theek hoon” kehne se pehle
Khud se poochha hota—
“Sach mein?”
Magar koi baat nahi…
Der se hi sahi,
Zindagi ne mujhe
Mujhse milwa diya.
Ab aayine ke saamne khada hota hoon
To apni kamiyan bhi dekhta hoon,
Apni thakan bhi,
Apni galtiyan bhi,
Magar ek baat par
Aaj bhi dil ko sukoon hai—
Mushkil waqt ne mera haal badla,
Mera dil nahi.
Mujhe takleef mili,
Magar maine kisi ke liye
Takleef ki dua nahi maangi.
Mujhe logon ne akela chhoda,
Magar maine kisi ko
Tanhai ka baddua nahi diya.
Mera bharosa toda gaya,
Magar maine har insaan par
Shak karna nahi seekha.
Mujhe kuch logon ne
Apne matlab ke tarazu mein tola,
Magar maine apne kirdaar ki qeemat
Unke hisaab se tay nahi ki.
Jo main tha,
Use bachaye rakhna hi
Meri sabse badi jeet rahi.
Haan…
Kabhi kabhi thak jaata hoon.
Bahut zyada.
Aisi thakan
Jo neend se nahi utarti.
Jism aaram kar leta hai,
Magar dimaag sawaal karta rehta hai.
Kal kya hoga?
Kaise hoga?
Jo zimmedariyaan hain
Woh kaise poori hongi?
Jin apnon ke liye
Itna kuch karta raha…
Kya unhe kabhi samajh aayega
Ke meri muskurahat ke peeche
Kitni fikrein chhupi thi?
Phir dil kehta hai—
Har sawaal ka jawaab
Aaj hi milna zaroori nahi.
Kuch panne
Allah ne kal ke liye rakhe hain.
Aur shayad insaan ki sabse badi aazmaish
Ye nahi ke uske paas kitni mushkilein hain…
Balki ye hai ke mushkilon ke bawajood
Uska apne Rab par kitna yaqeen baaki hai.
Isliye ab
Main har cheez ka hisaab
Duniya se nahi maangta.
Kisne mera saath diya,
Kisne chhoda,
Kisne yaad rakha,
Kisne bhula diya,
Kisne meri achchai samjhi,
Kisne uska faayda uthaya…
Sab Allah ke hawaale.
Kyunki kuch hisaab
Insaan ke haath mein achhe nahi lagte.
Unhe Rab ke paas chhod dena hi
Dil ke liye behtar hota hai.
Ab mujhe kisi se
Badla nahi chahiye.
Jisne dukh diya
Woh khush rahe.
Jisne doori chuni
Uska safar aasaan rahe.
Jisne mujhe galat samjha
Allah uske dil ko sukoon de.
Aur jisne mushkil waqt mein
Mera haath thaama…
Ya Allah,
use kabhi kisi ke saamne
Haath phailane ki zaroorat na pade.
Bas…
Ab meri duaen
Thodi badal gayi hain.
Pehle kehta tha—
“Ya Allah, mujhe ye de de…”
Ab kehta hoon—
“Ya Allah, jo mere haq mein behtar hai
Wahi ata farma.”
Pehle kehta tha—
“Ye shakhs meri zindagi mein rahe…”
Ab kehta hoon—
“Jo mere liye khair ka sabab hai
Use mere qareeb rakh,
Aur jo mere sukoon ko cheen le
Uski doori ko qubool karne ka hausla de.”
Pehle dua mein
Bahut si khwahishein hua karti thi…
Ab dua chhoti ho gayi hai—
“Ya Rab, dil ko sukoon de,
Rozi mein barkat de,
Karz aur fikr se aasani de,
Mere apnon ko salamat rakh,
Aur mujhe kisi ka haq maar kar
Kabhi khush mat karna.”
Bas itna hi.
Ab mujhe duniya se
Bahut kuch nahi chahiye.
Na har shakhs ki tareef,
Na har mehfil mein apni jagah,
Na har kisi ki mohabbat,
Na har sawaal ka jawaab.
Ek saaf dil ho,
Halal rozi ho,
Apnon ke chehre par muskurahat ho,
Raat ko bistar par jaaun
To zameer bojh na lage,
Aur sajde mein sar rakhun
To Rab se nazar milane mein
Dil ko sharmindagi na ho.
Mere liye ab shayad
Isi ka naam amiri hai.
Umr ne ye bhi sikha diya—
Har cheez haasil kar lena
Kamyabi nahi hoti.
Kabhi kisi cheez ko chhod dena bhi
Kamyabi hoti hai.
Kisi ko maaf kar dena,
Magar dobara wahi zakhm lene na jaana—
Kamyabi hai.
Kisi ki buri baat ka
Bura jawaab de sakte hue bhi
Khamosh reh jaana—
Kamyabi hai.
Aur duniya aapko
Badalne ki hazaar wajah de…
Phir bhi apne andar
Insaniyat bacha lena—
Shayad sabse badi kamyabi hai.
Aaj bhi dil dukhta hai.
Aaj bhi kuch yaadein
Aankhon ko nam kar deti hain.
Aaj bhi kisi apne ka badla hua lehja
Andar tak chubh jaata hai.
Main patthar nahi bana…
Bas har dard par awaaz dena
Chhod diya hai.
Ab kuch aansu
Aankhon tak aakar laut jaate hain,
Kuch shikayatein
Dil se nikal kar dua ban jaati hain,
Aur kuch baatein
Sirf Allah aur mere darmiyaan
Reh jaati hain.
Shayad yahi
Waqt ka diya hua sukoon hai—
Pehle main chahta tha
Duniya mujhe samjhe…
Ab bas itna chahta hoon—
Mera Rab mujhe samajhta rahe.
Duniya meri niyat par
Jo faisla chahe kare.
Mera chehra dekh kar
Jo kahani chahe likhe.
Mujhe ab har shakhs ke saamne
Apna kirdaar sabit nahi karna.
Mera Rab jaanta hai
Kahan main roya,
Kahan chup raha,
Kahan toot kar bhi
Kisi ka bura nahi chaha,
Aur kahan meri muskurahat ke peeche
Sirf sabr tha.
Mere liye itni gawahi kaafi hai.
Aur jis din
Meri zindagi ka safar
Peechhe mudkar dekha jaaye,
Main nahi chahta
Log kahen—
“Uske paas bahut kuch tha.”
Main chahta hoon
Koi dil se kahe—
“Usne bahut kuch saha tha,
Magar kisi ka bura nahi chaha.”
“Uske apne gham the,
Phir bhi doosron ke liye dua karta tha.”
“Zindagi ne use sakht zaroor kiya,
Magar uska dil sakht nahi kar saki.”
Bas…
Meri kahani ke liye
Itna hi kaafi hoga.
Aur jab kabhi
Dil phir duniya ki kisi cheez ke peeche
Bechain hone lage,
Main khud ko yaad dilaunga—
Har cheez paana zaroori nahi,
Har shakhs ka rehna zaroori nahi,
Har khwab ka poora hona zaroori nahi…
Magar dil mein sukoon,
Niyat mein safai,
Rizq mein barkat,
Apnon ki khairiyat,
Aur Rab se rishta—
Ye reh jaaye…
To insaan ke paas kam hote hue bhi
Bahut kuch reh jaata hai.
Isliye ab meri zindagi ki
Sabse badi aarzu
Koi badi aarzu nahi…
Bas itni si dua hai—
**“Ya Allah…
Jo mila uska shukr sikha de,
Jo nahi mila uska sabr de,
Jo chala gaya usse dil azaad kar de,
Jo mere paas hai uski qadar de,
Aur meri baaki zindagi ko
Itna sukoon ata farma
Ke mujhe duniya se kam
Aur Tujhse zyada umeed rahe.”** ❤️
