“Har aansu kisi ek dard ki wajah se nahi girta; kabhi-kabhi woh un tamam ‘main theek hoon’ ka bojh lekar girta hai, jo insaan ne saalon tak duniya ko yaqeen dilane ke liye kaha hota hai. Isliye jab dil bhar aaye, use ro lene do—kuch dard lafzon se nahi, aansuon aur sajdon se halka hote hain.”
-Zulfikar Inamdar
“Kabhi Dil Ko Bhi Rone Diya Karo…”
Arz kiya hai…
Pata nahi kyun,
ab dil ko sambhalte-sambhalte
khud hi thakne laga hoon,
Sabke saamne muskura leta hoon,
magar tanha hota hoon
to khud se nazrein churane laga hoon.
Log poochhte hain—
“Sab theek hai na?”
Aur kamaal dekhiye…
Lab har baar
“Alhamdulillah, sab theek hai” keh dete hain,
Magar dil andar se dheere se poochhta hai—
“Sach mein… sab theek hai?”
Is sawaal ka jawaab
na kabhi zubaan de paati hai,
na aankhein chhupa paati hain.
Bas ek khamoshi hai
jo mere andar roz thodi aur gehri hoti jaati hai.
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Kabhi kisi ki chhoti si baat
dil ko chhoo jaati hai,
Kabhi koi purani yaad
achanak saamne aa jaati hai,
Kabhi kisi apne ka badla hua lehja,
kabhi kisi ka nazarandaaz kar dena,
Aur kabhi…
Bina kisi wajah ke hi
aankhein bhar aati hain.
Phir main khud se kehta hoon—
“Pagal hai kya?
Itni si baat par kaun rota hai?”
Magar dil ke paas
apna hi hisaab hota hai…
Woh aaj ki ek baat par nahi rota,
Woh un sau baaton par rota hai
jin par humne kal kaha tha—
“Koi baat nahi…”
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Har “koi baat nahi” ke peeche
shayad ek baat thi.
Har “main theek hoon” ke peeche
shayad ek takleef thi.
Har muskurahat ke peeche
shayad ek aansu tha
jise girne ki ijazat nahi mili.
Aur har baar jab kisi ne kaha—
“Tum to bohot mazboot ho…”
Dil ne khamoshi se kaha—
“Kaash tumhe pata hota
is mazbooti ki qeemat
maine kitne aansuon se chukayi hai.”
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Mujhe bhi kabhi-kabhi
kisi aise insaan ki zaroorat hoti hai
jo meri baat ka jawaab na de…
Bas meri baat sun le.
Jo mujhe samjhane ki jaldi na kare,
Jo ye na kahe—
“Sabke saath hota hai…”
“Zyada mat socho…”
“Bhool jao…”
Bas paas baithkar kahe—
“Bol…
aaj dil mein jo kuch hai, keh de.
Main yahin hoon.”
Aur agar main kuch na keh paun…
To meri khamoshi ko
sawaalon se na bhar de.
Bas kandhe par haath rakhkar
itna keh de—
“Nahi kehna to mat keh…
magar akela mat seh.”
Shayad kabhi-kabhi
insaan ko mashwara nahi chahiye hota…
Bas kisi ka saath chahiye hota hai.
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Maine zindagi mein
bahut baar aansuon ko palakon tak aakar
wapas jaate dekha hai.
Is darr se nahi
ke duniya mujhe kamzor kahegi…
Balki isliye
ke agar ek aansu ko jaane diya,
To darr hai uske peeche
barson se khadi poori bheed
bahar na aa jaaye.
Kuch dard naye nahi hote…
Bas hum unhe
roz naye tareeqe se chhupate hain.
Kabhi kaam mein,
Kabhi hansne mein,
Kabhi logon ke beech,
Kabhi mobile ki screen mein,
Aur kabhi…
“Main bilkul theek hoon”
ke chaar lafzon mein.
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Kitna ajeeb hai na…
Doosron ke chehre dekhkar
unki udaasi pehchaan leta hoon,
Kisi ka lehja badle
to poochh leta hoon—
“Kya hua?”
Koi khamosh ho
to dil bechain ho jaata hai.
Magar jab baat
khud ki aati hai…
Main apne hi dil ko keh deta hoon—
“Chup reh…
abhi bohot zimmedariyaan baaki hain.”
Aur dil bechara
phir chup ho jaata hai.
Magar chup ho jaana
theek ho jaana nahi hota.
Kuch awaazein
bahar nahi nikalti,
Isliye andar goonjti rehti hain.
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Kabhi-kabhi sochta hoon…
Aakhir main kis baat par ro raha hoon?
Kisi shakhs par?
Kisi rishte par?
Kisi adhoori khwahish par?
Kisi guzre hue waqt par?
Ya apni hi zindagi par?
Phir jawaab milta hai—
Shayad kisi ek baat par nahi…
Shayad un sab lamhon par
jinmein dil toot raha tha
aur main muskura raha tha.
Un sab raaton par
jinmein neend se zyada
fikrein mere paas thi.
Un sab logon par
jinhe apna samajhkar
dil mein jagah di,
Aur un sab khwahishon par
jinhe apnon ki khushi ke liye
khamoshi se peeche chhod diya.
Aankhein aaj roti hain…
magar aansu kai saalon purane hote hain.
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Zindagi ne bhi
kya khoob hunar sikhaya hai…
Dard mein bhi
normal dikhna.
Dil pareshaan ho
to bhi kaam karna.
Andar toofan ho
to bhi kisi se kehna—
“Main theek hoon, aap batao…”
Khud ko zaroorat ho
kisi ke kandhe ki,
Phir bhi doosron ko
tasalli dete rehna.
Shayad isi ka naam
bada hona hai…
Ya shayad isi ka naam hai—
Dheere-dheere khud se door hote jaana.
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Magar ab ek baat
samajh mein aayi hai…
Har waqt mazboot rehna bhi
zaroori nahi.
Kabhi dil bhar aaye
to bhar aane do.
Kabhi aankhein nam hon
to unhe sharminda mat karo.
Kabhi tanhai mein
aansu nikal aayein
to khud ko kamzor mat samjho.
Aansu haar ki nishani nahi hote…
Kabhi-kabhi ye woh alfaaz hote hain
jinhe dil bahut arse se
zubaan tak nahi la saka.
Ro lena bhi
kabhi-kabhi ibaadat jaisa sukoon deta hai,
Khaaskar jab aansu
logon ke saamne nahi…
Apne Rab ke saamne girte hain.
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Ab jab dil bahut bhar jaata hai,
Main har kisi ke darwaaze par
apna dard lekar nahi jaata.
Wuzu karta hoon,
Sajde mein sar rakhta hoon,
Aur Allah se kehta hoon—
“Ya Rabb…
aaj alfaaz nahi hain mere paas.
Tu meri khamoshi samajh lena.”
Jo baat duniya ko
samjha nahi sakta,
Woh Tujhse chhupi nahi.
Jo aansu duniya ke saamne
girne nahi deta,
Unka sabab bhi Tu jaanta hai.
Jahan main mazboot dikhai diya
magar andar se toot raha tha—
Wahan bhi Tu tha.
Jahan kisi ne haal nahi poochha,
Wahan bhi Tu jaanta tha.
Jahan mere lab muskura rahe the
aur dil ro raha tha—
Wahan bhi Tu dekh raha tha.
To Ya Allah…
Mujhe har mushkil se
turant nikaal de,
ye zaroori nahi…
Magar har mushkil mein
mera haath mat chhodna.
Meri zindagi ko
har gham se khaali na kar…
Bas mere dil ko
itna mazboot yaqeen de
ke har gham mein keh sakun—
“Mera Rab mere saath hai.”
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Ab mujhe kisi aise insaan ki talaash bhi nahi
jo mere har dard ka ilaaj ban jaaye.
Bas jo zindagi mein hain,
woh sachche rahen.
Jo apne hain,
woh apne rahen.
Jo door chale gaye,
Allah unhe khush rakhe.
Aur jo mere dil ka haal
bina kahe samajh jaaye…
Us rishte ko Allah salamat rakhe.
Baaki…
Kuch dard mere hain,
kuch raaz mere Rab ke,
Kuch aansu meri aankhon ke,
kuch sawaal meri raaton ke…
Aur in sabke beech
ek chhoti si umeed aaj bhi zinda hai—
Ek din dil itna halka hoga
ke muskurane ke liye
khud ko samjhana nahi padega.
Ek din raat aayegi
aur fikron se pehle neend aayegi.
Ek din koi poochhega—
“Kaise ho?”
Aur main aadat se nahi,
dil se keh paunga—
**“Alhamdulillah…
ab sach mein theek hoon.”** ❤️
