“Duniya se bichhadne ka gham toh phir bhi saha jaata hai,
-Zulfikar Inamdar
Asal dard tab hota hai, jab insaan apne hi andar kahin kho jaata hai…”
🥀 Khud Se Bichhda Hua Shakhs:
Ek Zindagi, Hazaar Sangharsh — Meri Adhoori Daastaan:
Arz kiya hai ke…
Kabhi apne hi wajood ko talaash karta hoon,
Kabhi apni hi khamoshiyon se sawaal karta hoon,
Aaine mein chehra toh roz nazar aata hai mujhe,
Magar us chehre mein basa insaan kahaan hai,
Bas isi ka khayaal karta hoon…
Na jaane kis mod par khud ko peechhe chhod aaya,
Kis ki khushi ke liye apne khwaabon se munh mod aaya,
Sabko manzilon tak pahunchaane ki koshish mein,
Main apne hi safar ka har raasta tod aaya…
Log kehte hain mujhe zindagi ki samajh bahut hai,
Kaash koi poochhe, meri apni zindagi mein kami bahut hai,
Doosron ke har dard ka ilaaj dhoond leta hoon,
Magar mere apne zakhmon ki kahaani abhi bahut hai…
Har kisi ki mehfil mein muskurata raha hoon,
Apne aansuon ko hansi ke peechhe chhupata raha hoon,
Jinhein laga ke main bada khushnaseeb insaan hoon,
Unhein kya khabar, main andar hi andar bikharata raha hoon…
Kabhi socha tha, mere bhi kuch apne honge,
Meri aankhon mein bhi kuch haseen sapne honge,
Jab thak kar lautunga duniya ke safar se,
Toh kuch log mera bhi intezaar karte honge…
Magar waqt ne kuch aise manzar dikha diye,
Apnon ne hi apnepan ke maayne bhula diye,
Jin rishton ko seene se laga kar rakha tha,
Unhi rishton ne mujhe tanhaayi ke tohfe thama diye…
Kabhi rozi ki fikr, kabhi zimmedariyon ka bojh,
Kabhi apnon ki khwaahishein, kabhi majbooriyon ka bojh,
Main har subah ek nayi himmat lekar uthta hoon,
Aur har raat apne hi sawaalon ke neeche dabta hoon…
Meri kamaayi se pehle mere qarz jaag jaate hain,
Mahine ke aakhri din naye imtihaan le aate hain,
Jin haathon se kabhi doosron ki madad kiya karta tha,
Wohi haath aaj kisi ke saamne phailne se ghabraate hain…
Kisi ka paisa lautana hai, kisi ka waada nibhaana hai,
Kisi ko apni majboori, kisi ko waqt samjhaana hai,
Main jhootha nahi, bas haalaat se majboor hoon,
Har waada poora karna chahta hoon,
Magar waqt ke haathon majboor hoon…
Kabhi kisi se madad maangne mein sharm aati hai,
Kabhi apni hi bebasi par aankh bhar aati hai,
Jinhein apna samajhkar dil ka haal sunaana chahoon,
Unki khamoshi mujhe meri aukaat yaad dilaati hai…
Phone ki har dastak par dil ghabra sa jaata hai,
Kahin koi apna qarz na maang le, yeh khayaal aata hai,
Jis insaan ne kabhi kisi ka haq maarna nahi seekha,
Aaj wahi apni majboori samjhaate hue sharmaata hai…
Ghar ki zarooratein bhi hain, apnon ke sapne bhi,
Kuch adhure iraade hain, kuch waade apne bhi,
Main kis-kis ko bataaun ke kitna thak chuka hoon,
Meri muskurahat ke peechhe kitne dard chhupe hain…
Kabhi dil karta hai ke ek subah aisi bhi aaye,
Jab kisi qarz ka khayaal meri neend na udaaye,
Na kisi ko waada karna pade, na kisi se mohlat maangni pade,
Bas apni kamaayi mein sukoon se zindagi guzar jaaye…
Maine apni khwaahishon ko zimmedariyon mein dafn kiya hai,
Har khushi se pehle apnon ka khayaal kiya hai,
Log samajhte hain ke maine zindagi mein kya hi khoya hai,
Unhein kya maaloom, maine khud ko kitni baar khoya hai…
Na jaane kitni baar toot kar bhi sambhla hoon,
Kitni baar andheron mein akela chala hoon,
Kisi ko mere chehre par shikast nazar nahi aati,
Kyunki main apne aansuon ko bhi muskura kar piya hoon…
Kabhi apni umr ke guzarte lamhe dekhta hoon,
Kabhi apne adhure khwaabon ke chehre dekhta hoon,
Sochta hoon, kya isi kashmakash ka naam zindagi hai,
Ya mere hisse mein bhi kabhi sukoon ki koi subah likhi hai…
Ab kisi se shikayat karne ka dil nahi karta,
Apna haal kisi ko bataane ka dil nahi karta,
Jinhein kabhi meri khamoshi bhi samajh aati thi,
Ab unhein apni cheekh sunaane ka dil nahi karta…
Kabhi chaar deewaron se baatein karta hoon,
Kabhi guzre hue lamhon ki mulaqaatein karta hoon,
Log samajhte hain ke main aaraam se sota hoon,
Unhein kya maaloom, main jaag kar raatein karta hoon…
Ek umr guzar gayi sabko apna banaane mein,
Khud ko bhool gaya doosron ko hasaane mein,
Jab meri baari aayi kisi ke sahaare ki,
Toh koi bhi na mila mere aansu chhupaane mein…
Kabhi dil karta hai, koi paas aakar bas itna kahe,
Tu thak gaya hai na, chal aaj apna dard keh de,
Na koi naseehat de, na koi faisla sunaaye,
Bas mere paas baithkar kuch der meri khamoshi sun le…
Magar ab bhi dil mein ek chhoti si aas rakhta hoon,
Apni tooti hui saanson mein kuch ehsaas rakhta hoon,
Shayad ek din khud se phir mulaaqaat ho jaaye,
Isi umeed par har subah ka intezaar rakhta hoon…
Aur phir apne Rab se kehta hoon…
Ya Allah, main tere dar par khaali haath aaya hoon,
Duniya se nahi, apne haalaat se haar kar aaya hoon,
Mujhe daulat ke pahaad nahi, bas itni aasaani ata kar,
Ke kisi ka haq ada kar sakoon,
Aur apnon ke saamne sar utha kar jee sakoon…
Meri thakaan ko meri na-shukri na samajhna,
Meri khamoshi ko meri kamzori na samajhna,
Main aaj bhi teri rehmat ka talabgaar hoon,
Bas zindagi ke imtihaanon se kuch behaal hoon…
Main woh shakhs hoon jo apni zarooratein bhool jaata hai,
Magar apnon ki zarooraton par bechain ho jaata hai,
Main woh shakhs hoon jo hazaar baar toot kar bhi,
Har subah apni zimmedariyon ke liye khada ho jaata hai…
Na kisi se umeed hai, na koi gila baaqi hai,
Bas kuch toote hue khwaabon ka silsila baaqi hai,
Zindagi ne toh kab ka thaka diya hota mujhe,
Magar mere andar abhi thoda hausla baaqi hai…
Main bura nahi tha, bas sabka achha bante-bante haar gaya,
Har rishte ko bachaate-bachaate khud se hi haar gaya,
Duniya ko lagta raha main bahut mazboot hoon,
Aur main apni hi nazron mein dheere-dheere haar gaya…
Aur aakhir mein…
Main kho gaya hoon, magar mit nahi gaya hoon,
Zindagi se thaka hoon, magar haar nahi gaya hoon,
Jis din khud ko phir se pehchaan lunga main,
Us din duniya ko bataunga…
Meri zindagi ka sangharsh abhi khatam nahi hua,
Meri duaon ka silsila abhi kam nahi hua,
Main aaj bhi us subah ke intezaar mein hoon,
Jab aankhon mein aansu nahi, sukoon hoga,
Aur mere labon par sirf ek hi lafz hoga…
“Alhamdulillah, Ya Allah…
Tune meri har mushkil ko aasaan kar diya.”
Ke main akela zaroor tha,
Magar kabhi be-sahaara nahi tha,
Mere saath mera Rab tha,
Bas mujhe khud par aitbaar nahi tha… 🤲❤️
Aakhri Quote:
“Mere sangharsh ki sabse badi takleef meri tangdasti nahi, balki woh bebasi hai, jab main apnon ke liye sab kuch karna chahta hoon, magar apne haalaat ke aage majboor ho jaata hoon…”
— Zulfikar Inamdar
