“Meri muskurahat ko meri khushnaseebi mat samajhna,
-Zulfikar Inamdar
Main woh shakhs hoon jisne har baar bikhar kar bhi,
Apne tukdon se doosron ke liye khushiyan sajaayi hain…”
🌹 Title: “Mere Andar Ka Woh Shakhs”
— Ek Muskurate Chehre Ki Ankahi Daastaan —
Arz Kiya hai ke…
Mere chehre ki raunaq se meri zindagi ka faisla na karna,
Maine woh bhi saha hai, jiska kabhi kisi se zikr nahi kiya,
Mere lehje ki narmi ko meri kamzori mat samajhna,
Maine toot kar bhi kisi ka dil todne ka hunar nahi seekha…
Mere qehqahon mein jo tumhein khushiyon ki aawaaz sunaayi deti hai,
Unhi qehqahon ke peeche meri kitni siskiyan dafan hain,
Main har mehfil mein sabko apna bana kar milta raha,
Magar meri apni tanhaai mein kitne veeraan chaman hain…
Kisi ne poochha hi nahi kabhi, ke main itna khamosh kyun hoon,
Kisi ne jaana hi nahi, ke main andar se itna udaas kyun hoon,
Sabne meri baaton mein apne matlab ke jawaab dhoondhe,
Kisi ne mere dil se nahi poochha, ke main itna be-aawaaz kyun hoon…
Maine apne hisse ki khushiyan bhi doosron ke naam kar di,
Apne armaanon ki kitaab bhi waqt ke hawaale kar di,
Jin logon ki ek muskurahat ke liye main khud ko bhool gaya,
Unhi logon ne meri mohabbat ko meri aadat samajh li…
Mujhe bhi kabhi kisi ke kandhe par sar rakh kar rona tha,
Mujhe bhi kisi ki baahon mein apna sa ek kona tha,
Mujhe bhi sunna tha kisi se, “Bas ab bahut seh liya tumne”,
Magar meri qismat mein har baar khud ko hi sambhalna tha…
Main jab bhi thaka, apne aap ko hi hausla deta raha,
Har zakhm ko chhupa kar zindagi se muskura kar milta raha,
Kisi ko meri zaroorat thi, kisi ko mere hone se matlab tha,
Aur main har kisi ki khaatir apna wajood lutaata raha…
Kabhi apnon ke badalte lehjon ne dil ko zakhmi kiya,
Kabhi apni hi umeedon ne mujhe andar se khaali kiya,
Jin rishton ko bachane ke liye main khud se haar gaya,
Unhi rishton ne ek din mujhe tanha khada kar diya…
Mere paas bhi kuch khwaab the, jo kabhi poore nahi hue,
Kuch apne the, jo apne hokar bhi mere nahi hue,
Kuch baatein thi, jo dil se zubaan tak aa na saki,
Kuch aansu the, jo palkon par aakar bhi beh nahi sake…
Main har raat apne Rab se chupke chupke baatein karta hoon,
Din bhar ki thakaan aur dil ke saare dard bayaan karta hoon,
Duniya ke saamne toh keh deta hoon, “Sab theek hai”,
Magar sajde mein jaakar apni bebasi ka iqraar karta hoon…
Kabhi sochta hoon, kya mera bhi koi apna hoga,
Jo meri khamoshi mein chhupa har dard samajhta hoga,
Jo mere chehre ko nahi, meri rooh ko padha kare,
Jo mere hansne par nahi, meri udaasi par fikr kiya kare…
Jo kahe, “Tum har kisi ke liye bahut jee chuke ho,
Apni khwahishon ko na jaane kab se bhula chuke ho,
Aaj kisi aur ka bojh uthaane ki zaroorat nahi,
Aaj bas apne dil ki suno, tum bahut thak chuke ho…”
Kaash koi mere bachpan ki woh masoomiyat lauta de,
Jab chhoti si khushi bhi poori duniya lagti thi,
Jab dil par na kisi qarz ka bojh tha, na rishton ka hisaab,
Aur Maa ki ek aawaaz har pareshani ka jawaab lagti thi…
Aaj umar ke is mod par khud ko dekhta hoon,
Toh apne hi andar ek ajnabi sa shakhs milta hai,
Jo kabhi khwaabon ko haathon mein lekar chala tha,
Aaj unhi haathon mein zindagi ka bojh liye phirta hai…
Na jaane kitni baar khud se hi haar kar jeeta hoon,
Na jaane kitni baar aansuon ko muskura kar peeta hoon,
Log kehte hain, “Tum toh bade mazboot insaan ho”,
Unhein kya maaloom, main har roz khud ko samet kar jeeta hoon…
Mujhe ab kisi se shikayat bhi karni nahi aati,
Apne dard ki numaish bhi karni nahi aati,
Bas itna chahta hoon, jab kabhi meri yaad aaye,
Mujhe mere achhe dil se yaad karna, meri majbooriyon se nahi…
Aur agar kabhi meri aawaaz mein woh pehli si khanak na mile,
Meri baaton mein woh pehle jaisi shararat na mile,
Toh samajh lena, main badla nahi hoon waqt ke saath,
Bas zindagi ne kuch aise sabaq diye, ke pehla sa main na raha…
Magar ab bhi mere andar ek chhota sa khwaab zinda hai,
Har thaki hui saans mein ek naya ehsaas zinda hai,
Duniya chahe mere wajood ko kitni hi baar aazma le,
Mere seene mein ab bhi mohabbat se bhara ek dil zinda hai…
Main aaj bhi kisi ke aansu dekh kar bechain ho jaata hoon,
Apni takleef bhool kar doosron ke kaam aa jaata hoon,
Shayad yahi meri sabse badi daulat hai is duniya mein,
Ke itna kuch sehne ke baad bhi, main insaaniyat nibhaata hoon…
Aur ek din jab meri zindagi ki kitaab padhi jaayegi,
Meri har khamoshi ki ek alag kahaani sunaayi jaayegi,
Tab shayad koi bheegi aankhon se bas itna kahega—
“Yeh shakhs apne liye toh kabhi jee hi nahi paaya,
Magar jaate-jaate bhi kitne dilon mein apni jagah bana gaya…”
🌹 Aakhri Alfaaz — Dil Se
“Main apni kahaani ka woh safha hoon,
Jise har kisi ne palta, magar padha kisi ne nahi…
Main woh dua hoon jo sabke liye maangi gayi,
Magar mere liye kabhi kisi ne haath uthaya hi nahi…
Phir bhi mujhe apni zindagi se koi gila nahi,
Kyunki mera Rab jaanta hai, main kaisa tha,
Duniya ne toh sirf mera chehra dekha hai,
Mera Maula jaanta hai, main andar se kitna tanha tha…”
“Har muskurate chehre ko khushiyon ka pata mat samajhna,
Har khamosh insaan ko duniya se juda mat samajhna,
Kuch log apne hisse ke aansu bhi chhupa lete hain,
Unke hansne ko unke dard ki inteha mat samajhna…”
