“Mohabbat ki sabse gehri haar ye nahi ke woh shakhs tumhe mila nahi… balki ye hai ke tum jaante ho woh tumhara kabhi hoga nahi, phir bhi jab dua ke liye haath uthte hain, dil apne liye kuch maangne se pehle uski khushi maang leta hai.”
-Zulfikar Inamdar
🖤 “Tum Meri Na Hokar Bhi… Meri Dua Rahi”
Arz kiya hai…
Tumhe haasil karna meri mohabbat ki shart kab thi,
Maine toh tumhe us din bhi chaha tha
Jab mujhe maloom tha
Ke tumhari manzil tak jaane wale raaste mein
Mera naam kahin likha hi nahi hai…
Maine tumse mohabbat
Tumhe apna banane ke liye nahi ki thi,
Bas tumhe dekha…
Dil ko tum achhi lagi…
Aur phir na jaane kab
Meri har khamoshi ke andar
Tumhara zikr rehne laga…
Tumhe shayad kabhi khabar bhi na ho
Ke tumhari ek muskurahat ke liye
Maine kitni baar apne aansuon se samjhauta kiya hai…
Tum udaas na ho,
Isliye apna dard chhupa liya…
Tum pareshan na ho,
Isliye apni mohabbat chhupa li…
Aur tum mujhse door na ho jao,
Is darr se…
Kabhi tumse ye bhi nahi kaha
Ke tumhare bagair
Mere andar kya-kya toot jaata hai…
Mohabbat ajeeb thi meri…
Tumse koi haq nahi maanga,
Koi wada nahi maanga,
Koi rishta nahi maanga…
Bas jab bhi zindagi ne
Mujhe dua ke liye haath uthane diye,
Na jaane kyun
Meri apni zaruratein peeche reh gayin
Aur tumhara naam
Sabse pehle dil par aa gaya…
Tum meri kismat mein nahi thi,
Magar meri har dua mein thi…
Isse badhkar kisi ki haar kya hogi
Ke jise duniya se chhupakar
Apni rooh ke sabse mehfooz kone mein rakha,
Ek din usi ko
Kisi aur ki duniya bante hue dekhna pada…
Aur isse badhkar mohabbat kya hogi
Ke dil andar se cheekhta raha—
“Kaash tum meri hoti…”
Aur hont phir bhi dua karte rahe—
“Jahan bhi rahe… khush rahe.”
Kabhi-kabhi sochta hoon,
Agar tum meri ho jaati
Toh shayad mohabbat ek kahani ban kar reh jaati…
Magar tum meri na hui,
Isliye tum
Meri kahani se nikal kar
Meri rooh ka ek hissa ban gayi…
Ab tumhe bhoolne ki koshish bhi nahi karta…
Kuch log bhulaye nahi jaate,
Unhe bas dil ke ek aise kamre mein rakh diya jaata hai
Jiska darwaza hum duniya ke saamne
Kabhi nahi kholte…
Wahan tum aaj bhi ho…
Wahi muskurahat,
Wahi chehra,
Wahi aankhein…
Aur wahi main…
Jo tumse kehna toh bahut kuch chahta tha,
Magar tumhe kho dene ke darr se
Kabhi kuch keh hi nahi saka…
Log kehte hain,
“Jab woh tumhari hui hi nahi,
Toh itni mohabbat kyun?”
Main muskura deta hoon…
Unhe kaise samjhaun—
Mohabbat milkiyat nahi hoti…
Har khoobsurat cheez par
Naam likhna zaroori nahi hota…
Chaand kisi ek ka nahi hota,
Phir bhi kitne log
Usse dekhkar apni raat guzaar dete hain…
Tum bhi mere liye
Kuch aisi hi thi…
Tumhe chhoo lene ki zid se zyada
Tumhe khush dekhne ki tamanna thi…
Tumhe apna kehne ki khwahish se zyada
Tumhare liye dua karne mein sukoon tha…
Haan, dard hota tha…
Bahut hota tha…
Jab sochta tha ke
Tumhari zindagi ke khoobsurat lamhon mein
Shayad mera koi hissa nahi hoga…
Tum kisi aur ke saath hansogi,
Kisi aur se apne din ki baatein kahogi,
Kisi aur ke intezaar mein waqt dekhogi…
Aur main?
Main shayad tumhari zindagi ki
Ek aisi khamosh kahani rahunga
Jise tumne kabhi padha hi nahi…
Magar phir bhi
Tumse koi shikayat nahi…
Kyunki mohabbat mein
Sabse khoobsurat maqam shayad wahi hai
Jahan insaan apni khwahish se pehle
Mehboob ki khushi rakh deta hai…
Isliye agar kabhi
Tumhe meri yaad aaye…
Toh ye mat sochna
Ke maine tumhe bhula diya hoga…
Bas itna samajh lena—
Maine tumhara zikr karna chhod diya hoga,
Tumhe chahna nahi…
Maine tumhari tasveer dekhna chhod diya hoga,
Tumhe mehsoos karna nahi…
Maine tumhara intezaar chhod diya hoga,
Magar tumhare liye
Khair maangna nahi…
Aur jis din
Mujhe poora yaqeen ho jaayega
Ke tum kabhi meri nahi ho sakti…
Us din bhi meri mohabbat
Tumse koi hisaab nahi maangegi…
Bas meri dua ka andaaz badal jaayega—
Pehle kehta tha,
“Ya Allah, use meri kismat bana de…”
Aur phir kahunga—
“Ya Allah,
agar uski kismat mein main nahi,
toh uski zindagi mein
aisa shakhs zaroor likhna
jo uski aankhon mein aansu aane se pehle
uska dard samajh jaaye…
Jo uski khamoshi ko nazarandaaz na kare,
jo uski muskurahat ki hifazat kare,
aur jo use utni mohabbat de…
jitni mohabbat main
use kabhi keh hi nahi saka…”
Bas ek chhoti si guzarish aur hogi—
Uski zindagi itni khoobsurat kar dena
Ke use kabhi meri kami mehsoos na ho…
Aur mujhe itna sabr de dena
Ke uski khushi dekhkar
Meri aankhein nam toh hon…
Magar meri dua kabhi kam na ho.
Kyunki woh meri hui ya nahi,
Ab ye sawaal hi kahan raha…
Mere liye toh mohabbat ka matlab
Us din hi badal gaya tha
Jis din maine usse paane se zyada
Uske khush rehne ki tamanna ki thi…
Aur agar kabhi
Zindagi ke kisi mod par
Tumhe ye alfaaz mil jaayein…
Aur padhte-padhte
Tumhara dil achanak khamosh ho jaaye…
Toh ek pal ke liye sochna—
Kahin duniya ke kisi kone mein
Ek shakhs aisa bhi tha…
Jisne tumhe paaya nahi,
Phir bhi tumhe khoya hua maanta raha…
Jiska tum par koi haq nahi tha,
Phir bhi tumhari fikr
Apno se badhkar karta raha…
Jise tumhari zindagi mein
Jagah shayad kabhi mili hi nahi…
Magar jiski duaon mein
Tumhari jagah kabhi kisi aur ko mili hi nahi…
Aur meri mohabbat ki
Sabse khoobsurat…
Aur sabse dardnaak sachchai
Bas itni si rahegi—
Tum meri kabhi nahi hui…
Magar maine tumhe kabhi
“Gair” bhi nahi samjha. 🖤🥀
