🥀 “UMR GUZAR GAYI, MAIN REH GAYA…”

“Zindagi ne mujhse mera bachpan, meri maasoomiyat, mere khwaab aur na jaane kitne apne chheen liye… Magar sabse bada dard tab hua, jab ek din aaine mein khud ko dekha aur mehsoos kiya ki jis insaan ko main saari umr sambhaalta raha, woh toh kab ka mere andar kahin kho chuka tha.”

-Zulfikar Inamdar

🥀 “UMR GUZAR GAYI, MAIN REH GAYA…” 🥀

Arz kiya hai…

Ek Khaamosh Zindagi Ki Adhoori Daastaan
Zindagi ki bheed mein kuch is tarah kho gaya hoon,
Sabke liye jeete-jeete khud se juda ho gaya hoon,
Kabhi har chhoti khushi par muskura deta tha,
Ab badi se badi khushi mein bhi khaamosh ho gaya hoon.

Woh bachpan bhi kya tha, jab aansu sachche hote the,
Aur muskurane ke liye kisi wajah ki zaroorat na thi,
Ab toh har hansi ke peeche ek kahaani chhupi hai,
Aur har kahaani kisi ko sunaane ki himmat na rahi.

Kabhi logon ki aankhon mein apnapan talaashta tha,
Ab apni hi parchhaai se sawaal karta hoon,
Jinhein apna samajh kar umr bhar sambhaala maine,
Unhi ki yaadon se aaj khud ko nikaala karta hoon.

Main bura nahi tha, bas hadd se zyada achha tha,
Har kisi ke liye apne hisse ka sukoon lutaata raha,
Log mere chehre ki muskurahat lekar chale gaye,
Aur main apni hi khaamoshiyon ka qarzdaar banta raha.
Waqt ne mujhse meri umr hi nahi chheeni,
Mere andar ka woh be-fikr insaan bhi le gaya,
Jo kabhi toot kar bhi phir se khada ho jaata tha,
Aaj woh ek chhoti si baat par andar se bikhar gaya.

Kisi ne poochha, “Itne khaamosh kyun rehte ho?”
Maine kaha, “Ab alfaazon par bharosa nahi raha,”
Jinhein dil ki har baat bataaya karta tha,
Unke paas hi mere dard ke liye waqt nahi raha.

Maine dekha hai apnon ko zaroorat ke waqt badalte hue,
Maine dekha hai waadon ko khaamoshi mein marte hue,
Maine dekha hai khud ko har roz thoda-thoda toot-te hue,
Aur phir bhi duniya ke saamne muskuraate hue.

Na jaane kitni baar khud ko samet kar utha hoon,
Kitni baar apni hi aankhon se chhup kar roya hoon,
Duniya kehti rahi, “Tum toh bade mazboot ho,”
Kaash koi poochhta, “Itne mazboot bane kaise ho?”

Ab na kisi se koi umeed rakhta hoon,
Na kisi ke badal jaane ka hisaab rakhta hoon,
Bas apne Rab ke saamne dil khol deta hoon,
Aur duniya ke liye chehre par muskaan rakhta hoon.

Kabhi raat ke sannate mein khud se milta hoon,
Toh ek puraana sa chehra nazar aata hai,
Woh jo kabhi zindagi se beinteha mohabbat karta tha,
Aaj mujhse poochhta hai, “Tu itna badal kaise jaata hai?”

Main kya jawaab doon us maasoom se chehre ko,
Jise zindagi ki haqeeqat ka andaaza na tha,
Woh toh har shakhs ko apna samajh baitha tha,
Use kya khabar thi, har apna hamesha apna na tha.

Maine zindagi se kabhi bahut kuch maanga hi nahi,
Bas thoda sa pyaar, thoda sa sukoon chaaha tha,
Magar har baar jab khushi mere qareeb aayi,
Waqt ne mujhse uska bhi hisaab maanga tha.

Aur ab…
Na guzre hue lamhon ko waapas bulaana hai,
Na bichhde hue logon ko phir se apnaana hai,
Bas ek baar apne aap se milna chahta hoon,
Us shakhs se, jise sabko khush rakhte hue bhool jaana tha.
Meri zindagi ki sabse badi haar yeh nahi,
Ke kuch log mujhe chhod kar chale gaye,
Meri sabse gehri takleef toh yeh hai,
Ke unhein rokne mein mere apne khwaab chale gaye.

Phir bhi dil mein ek chhoti si roshni baaqi hai,
Kahin na kahin jeene ki ek wajah baaqi hai,
Main thak zaroor gaya hoon zindagi ke safar se,
Magar mere andar abhi bhi ek dua baaqi hai.

Shayad ek din phir khul kar muskuraaunga,
Apne bikhre hue khwaabon ko phir se sajaaunga,
Jis din khud ko apni hi nazron mein paa lunga,
Us din samjhunga… main zindagi se jeet jaaunga.

— Zulfikar ❤️